Sweet Farewell (JENLISA ONESHOT)

Of All The Lies I've Heard

•Jennie POV•

Cuddle, is the thing we always do in our weekend, when she off from her job and I don't have any classes to attend. Or sometimes we watch films or just lay in our bed and talk about random things. Maybe you'll think this is a bored things, but not for us. Not for me...

I love laying upon her chest, snake my hands around her torso. Feeling her heart beat which sounds like a beautiful rythm in my ears. And she will caress my head or tap tap my back.

"B-baby..." I called her doubtfully, Lisa my girfriend.

"Hmmm...??"

"I.. urmmm... I have something to tell you."

"Yes, baby... just tell me", she's answering me while closing her eyes. Her hands are caressing my back gently. "Hmmmm..?? Are you in your red zone? Don't worry, I won't eat you now. I'm too tired with my works lately", she said and giggled.

I slapped her arm softly, "Huh?? Noooo...."

"So?" She asked again.

"Urmmm... W-will you hate me if I said I have a crush on someone?" I hold my breath and cursed myself, stupid... stupid... stupid... Jennie why would you tell about this to her.

Lisa opened her eyes and tilt her head. She stared at me with her 'what did you say' look.

"What is that supposed to mean?" She frowned.

"I love you...please remember that." I looked into her eyes. "Tell me will you h-hate me?"

She sighed, "I told you, I like you being honest. I will really appreciate your honesty. And you knew I never hate people, no matter what they did to me, how bad it is. I won't hate them."

This guilty feeling stabbed me deeper, but I can't take my words back again now. I already admited to Lisa.

"Is she or he?" She asked me.

"S-she..."

"Do you wanna be with her?"

"What question is that?"

"Do you?"

"It's not gonna happen."

"Why?"

"I know that."

"How do you know?"

"I... I just know..."

Silence... no one of us say a word. I'm just too afraid to talk, and she... I know she's feeling dissapoint with me. Cause this is not the first time I told her about my crush towards someone. And with different person as well.

"See, I'm not wrong with my feeling or sensing. I said you changed but you denied it. You have a crush, that's why you changed. You...." She took a deep breath, I can feel it when her chest is puffing up. "Your feeling towards her is distracting you."

"I swear, I never changed. I love you. Only you. I told you this, cause I feel so guilty for having feelings for someone else." I got up and sat next to her, "Baby, I only love you."

Lisa got up as well and sat. She leaned her back on the bed headboard. She doesn't even look at me.

"Baby, this is the second time you told me about your feelings towards another persons."

"I know, that's why i feel so guilty."

"Let me tell you something. If you really love me, then you won't feel this feelings. Cause you already closed your heart for anyone. What you feel for me is just.... you need me. Because I already exist in your daily life. The truth is, you still want someone else, but you also can't lose me cause you're getting used to with my presence."