Why am I afraid to say? (Snufkin x Moomintroll) (Discontinued for now)

Little My's interference

"I knew it!"

I jump, turning to see Little My standing behind me, my face red with embarrassment. My has a triumphant smirk on her face, her hands on her hips.

"Now, now, Little My, let's not jump to conclusions here-"
Before I can finish my sentence, she cuts me off.

"You like him, don't you?"

I feel my face begin to boil
"No no no no no, I don't like him, not like that. He's a close friend but I-"

"Stop trying to deny it, Snuffy. You like Moomintroll, admit it."
Little My clearly doesn't seem convinced. I can tell by the determined look on her face that lying won't get me anywhere.

"W...fine, yes, I do." I turn to look at the river, avoiding having to look at Little My. It wouldn't help my situation. "But what does it matter to you?"

I hear Little My giggle mischievously. She's obviously up to something, I shouldn't have said anything.
"Weeeeell, I was thinking it was pretty pointless to be so quiet about it. I think you should tell him."

I look to Little My, frowning, before looking back at the river.
"No. That's stupid."

"It's not stupid, you being so quiet about it is stupid."

"Well even if it is stupid to be quiet, that's just what I'm going to do, alright?"

"Well if you don't say anything, I will! I just have to-"

I turn to Little My, scowling.
"You won't be saying ANYTHING!"

She jumps back a bit, looking surprised. I try to calm myself down, as neither of us say a word. All that can be heard are the sounds of nature. I sigh.
"I'm sorry, I...I just have a lot of reasons not to tell him."

"...do you want to tell me what they are?"

I consider walking off and ignoring My, but I know it's pointless and wouldn't really help anyone. I sit back down on the bridge. 
"Why not, I guess. But we won't be talking for long, I need to set up my tent."

Little My sits next to me, looking at me with intrigue. 
"That's alright. So, what reasons do you have, then?"

I continue looking at the river, thinking. The river's rather lively today.
"Well...first of all, if I tell him, what if he hates me? Second of all, what if he doesn't hate me but everything is awkward? Third of all, what if he likes me back, and it just hurts him more when I leave in the Winter? I mean, it's unlikely that he'd like me back, but the fact that could be a possibility still upsets me. And what if he doesn't like me back, and he doesn't hate me, and it's not awkward but...what if I never move on?"

I look at Little My, who I see looks rather concerned.
"Wow, you are really overthinking this. Listen, whether he likes you or he doesn't, being quiet won't really make things any better. It'll hurt you, and it might end up hurting him. And listen, I doubt Moomintroll would ever hate you, he's always rambling on about how much he likes you."

I feel my face heat up. I don't want it to, but what can I do?
"He...he is?"

"Well, yeah. You're usually all he ever talks about, and if he talks about something else it usually relates to you in some way."
Little My chuckles.

"Right..."
I look back at the river. Does he really talk about me that much? Maybe Little My is exaggerating, that seems likely. But I don't want her to be, I know I don't want her to. 
"But I'm still not..."
I pause in the middle of my sentence, thinking. Was Little My right about it being better to just be honest? I wanted it to be better to be silent, I didn't want to do something wrong by telling Moomintroll how I feel, but...another part of me wanted her to be right. Another part of me wanted to run up to Moomintroll and just tell him about everything.
"What do you think I should do?" I sigh.

Little My is silent for a moment, before smiling.
"Well, I've been telling you all this time that you should be honest. If it doesn't go the way you'd like it to, then that's that. But you'll never know by keeping it to yourself."

"...well, I suppose you're right." I stand up, and Little My stands up as well. "Anyway, I need to go set up my tent. Thanks for talking to me, Little My."

"No problem, Snuffy." Little My says before running off to the Moominhouse without saying a word more.
A lot just happened, and I'm not too sure how I feel about it. But there's no time to think about it now. I need to set up my tent, I have things I need to do today. Mainly spending time with Moomintroll. Agh, I need to stop thinking about him for just. One. Second! I just need to clear my mind, at least for a bit. Dang it, I've only just gotten back and I already feel like this.