Depression took over my mind a few years ago. For a person who is so young and has so much to live for.... I feel almost dead, as if my life was over before it began.
People think I'm crazy, saying I have a great life and I should appreciate it and never take it for granted. I appreciate that I am breathing everyday, my life is not great my family is very fortunate but money can't always bring happiness.
Suicide is forever on my mind I can never bring myself to actually do it though. I really just want to disappear but at the same time I don't. I already feel invisible to others so disappearing might just make my desire for death more approachable.
I always listen to stories in people's lives and compare them to mine, some people are in the same position as I am and others are just lucky to feel free. I would love to feel again. I would love to feel alive.....
