y/n p.o.v
it has been a week since josh broke up with me
a week without the love of my life
*flashback*
me and josh were sitting on the couch cuddling while watching "beauty and the beast"
josh got a phone call and he picked it up
"hello?" josh said
i couldnt hear what the other person was saying but i saw josh's face go stone cold
"babe, whats wrong?" i whispered at him
"uh ok, thank you" he said to the person on the phone
he stood up and looked at me
"i um, i got the role" he said
"what?! that's amazing!!" i yelled getting up and hugging him
i pulled away and looked at his face, he still wasnt smiling or anything, he was emotionless
"what's wrong? why arent you happy?" i asked him
"y/n, we shoot in salt lake city" he said
"oh" i said taking in this new information
"well, it's only like ten hours away from here, i can drive or fly over there" i was thinking of all the ways we could make this work
"no, y/n, i dont want to hold you back, find someone who will be there for you always, and that's not me"
*end of flashback*
i was sitting in my bed crying
i have been crying everyday ever since he left
"y/n, are you alright?" my roommate, dixie (yes dixie damelio) asked me
i didnt answer
"i have pizza"
i still didnt answer
i heard her sigh and then saw the pizza box slide under the door
"just know im here whenever you wanna talk, okay?" she told me
i just sniffled
i have watched so many tv shows and movies in the past couple days it's crazy
i went onto instagram to see that josh was live streaming
i started watching the stream while eating the pizza dixie gave me
"hey guys, what's up" he said to his fans
he read comments for a little while until someone asked him to sing a song
"um this is a song that i wrote for someone special" he said grabbing his guitar
my heart dropped when he said that
hes already talking to other girls??
my thoughts were interrupted by josh starting to sing
excuse the mess i made when you were mine
im still learning how to love
i know youre nervous
but i wont let you fall
and we werent perfect
but you were worth it all
if it were my call
id do it all again
id do it all again
id do it all again
i was stunned
his voice was so beautiful, and i missed it singing me to sleep every night
the comments were blowing up
