Always Apart

For us

What is my biggest fear? End of the world? Pandemics? Nothing can compare to the feeling I get when I am thinking of loosing you. I can't imagine a day without you,a night without feeling the pressure of your body against mine,a moment with another person's lips running down on my skin until I can't breath. Nobody won't ever gave me those goosebumps. Nothing will ever made me change my mind about how I feel about you. And because I feel too much at the same time- I decide to let go. I hope,somewhere,when the world won't be cruel , when moments will be infinities,when illusions don't exist,when the nights will have stars, when the sun's rays will shine towards our faces in the morning when we woke up instead of burning us, maybe at that time we will meet again.
Until then,I won't kiss you as a goodbye,because when I see you I can't stop falling for you. It's not a goodbye, souls like ours are never apart.
Is it a mistake? I need to fight for you,for us? Our love is everywhere,in every word,every action is for the other person. Then,I decided that I wanted to stop living because I feared the missing of a person. I wanted to love you forever and I realised I made a promise I won't keep. I promised to give my children the best life ever. What if the world will end when my children are born? I promised them the best life,not death. Love has no measurements:it's everything or not at all. I am giving up on the best thing I could do-love will all my heart. For what ?