Marvel Imagines

How I Feel

(This is a real life situation, I wanted to document my feelings but you can imagine it with any character you want.)

I didn't expect you, but I did join the online dating app. It was a joke at first but has it started something new? My friends and I were going through at possibilities, but after that night I forgot it existed. Then I matched with him, he asked me about my thoughts on a movie series and certain actors. We ended up both ranting about our views. The conversation was just starting but it felt so strong!

After hearing disappointing news just a few hours earlier, I felt myself relax into conversation. We talked all night and he finally asked for my number.

I hate going into things with high expectations, but even if it wasn't meant to be a romantic relationship, I would still have someone to geek out with about my interests. We were talking in such depth, that it wasn't until 1 am we had finally bid each other good night.

In such trying times, I felt giddy for once. Something to actually blood forward to in the upcoming days.

He texted me first on the next day, a little smile forming on my lips. I didn't even consciously smile, it just happened. We continued talking about our lives and interests, only to find we had a lot of stories to share once we met each other in person. I currently was meeting with some friends and family away from the city, while he stayed and continued his work there.

I don't have a lot of experience with any of this. I never really dated anyone before but just the thought of being around him made me happy. Not even in a sexual way, just being able to talk to him and see his reactions excites me.

We have shared details, all not too revealing or quickly. Enough to keep interest in one another for when we did me. He offered to teach me how ski, as I have never been. I offered to hold a movie marathon when I returned to the city. We even started a small Mario Kart competition.

Now I lay here as I think about all the emotions rushing through me. He generally makes me happy, and I have never felt this before.

It feels like hundreds of butterflies flying around me. The rush of electricity I feel when I see he messaged me is addicting. The way my lips always curves into a smile when I think about him and I haven't even met him in person yet.

Being as awkward as I am, I worry I might ruin things. Although, I feel like he would accept me for who I am. He has proven that to me in some ways. He finds my cosplaying to be fun and exciting because I enjoy it. I shouldn't have to be worried, I know that what happens was meant to be and I can learn from the experiences.

Him being in my life for only a few days has shown me so much. I have taken steps back and enjoyed the beauty in everything around me and I continue to search this feeling of true happiness.