Don't Do This To Me ~ Sonny Robertson (Roadtrip)

Chapter 3 - Heartache. Nothing more, nothing less.

I went to go fetch Brook and grab another coffee. 

"C'mon, we're finished." I called out to him.

"Yeah gimme a sec. I'm headed out to meet with the boys and you're coming with." My heart dropped. I haven't seen then since the day of the breakup, and quite frankly I wasn't so keen on showing my face this soon. Embarrassment wasn't such a flattering look on me, and someone is bound to ask about the breakup. I'm not sure I was willing to talk about it anymore today. 

"I actually was just planing on just going home, Brook."

"And I'm not accepting that. You been coped up in your house for the past week, and you haven't seen them in a while. They miss you." I finally gave in and decide to go along with him, fearing the shame I might feel. We pulled up to the park, where we usually hang out and I saw the boys with smiles on their face, but they were sincere smiles.

Meet Rye, Beaumont. I personally like to address him as the guy that stole my name although he's older. He's moderately tall with hazel, almost green like eyes. There's Andy, the musical one, dumb blonde of the group but the one with the most heart. Speculations about his relationship with Rye have been made, and although they always seem to deny the rumors, they're quite obvious. And then there's Harper, the angel of the group. He fell into the blonde category alongside with Andy.

"Hey guys." I manged to get out. 

"Hey, we missed you man." Rye spoke. I gave them all a friendly smile, but you could clearly see through it and straight to the suffering part. I could tell they all sympathized for me, and Andy indicated me to come sit with him. I soulfully walked over to him and huddled in his lap to feel safe and to mime that I had missed them all without having to speak actual words. 

"So, who broke up with who?" Rye asked in curiosity coated with innocence. 

"Are you mad? You can't ask him that so soon." Harper exclaimed. I chuckled and let it pass, I knew he meant well. 

" It's fine. The more I talk about it the less it'll hurt someday I guess," I half smiled. "I put the pieces together and figured out that she was sleeping with someone else. When I went to find her to address her about it, I walked in on her and Jack." Their faces froze, jaws dropped.

"Are you serious?"

"Jack?"

"Yup." I whispered, as of now that's about all I could say because I started to choke on my own tears. "and just like that, 2 years of my love for her vanished. I felt nothing for her after that." I melted into Andy's arms, hoping it would numb this horrible feeling. 

"I'm so sorry you had to see that, honestly." Harper said, I could hear the meaning behind his voice. It was comforting to know of all their concern. We spent a couple hours or so just chatting, I remained silent for most of it but they all understood. 

"It's getting dark, we should get home. I'll take Sonny home and I'll see you guys tomorrow." And with that, I left with Harper in his car and the rest of the boys went home. We stayed in a comfortable silence for most of the car ride, but I liked it that way so I had no reason to get all choked up on my tears again like a baby. When we had arrived at my house, a gut feeling in my stomach told me I'd hate having to walk in and experience all those memories flooding back to me again. I asked Harper to stay with me for the night because there was no way I was getting through tonight alone. I opened the door and then locked it after we had both entered. Harps ran to the kettle to make us both a cup of tea, and for some reason, I couldn't seem to move from where I was. I clutched the stair rail for support, and panic jumped me as my body began to feel weak. 

"You want any sugar?" 

"I'm gonna..." I could feel my voice slowly fading to the point where no audible sound seemed to exit my mouth. I suddenly lost all control of my body strength and felt myself dropping to the ground, but before I could fully hit the floor, Harper caught me. 5 seconds later, I blacked out and no longer had to ability to remember anything further events happening.

 One thing I do recall was that although I was in a blank mind space, my aching heart still found a way to make itself involved through the additional pain.