Hello my friend.
I'm glad to accept your message on Facebook. I was depressed because I made a mistake on my job. It's difficult to tell but I'll try.
You know I'm working at a department store. I began my job and my boss said "Bring these toilet papers to the floor!" and I started that work.
But the track arrived and new items began to be brought to the store. I thought I should move these items to the store's space as stocked Items. And Of course, if these items are not arrived in the shelf I have to put them to there. I began new work.
But I didn't complete my work the boss ordered. So I was said "You don't do my order! Your selfish work does make disorder!" So I thought I had to do under my boss's order. That's all.
Yes it's not strange scene. We experience these situation in various ways. So it is very troublesome if you depressed when these mistakes occurred. I need to be strong. But what is strong? I thought that. I am weak I think but do I need to be strong?
I've read a book about Japanese terrible cult. They did training and made strong hearts in their mind. It was hard training/discipline. And they did murders with no sadness in their hearts. They believed that these murders bring them happiness in the next life.
They were strong? In other ways they were strong. But I don't want that toughness. I am weak but my sensitiveness can be some evidence that I am the person who can find something what "strong" person doesn't/can't find.
I'm praising myself too higher? Yes I think so. But I think my weakness can be the power to live. Yesterday's mistake made me think like that. How do you think?
Yours.
