Randy’s pov- Walk Away
I don’t know why she is with me
Brie is out to have a girls day out with her twin Nicole and few other friends. I sat on the couch thinking why is Brie even with me? Does she love me so much? Why?
I’ve only bought her trouble
since the day she met me
Even since the first day Brianna came in to WWE I got her in trouble blaming her for a spill of my drink. From then on since I got her in trouble, in more ways than one could imagine. Even with my cheating I’m bring trouble to her.
If I was her by now I would’ve left me
I would have walked away
but now I’ve broken away
If I was her I won’t even have my stuff in this house at this very moment. I would have left and go find myself someone I deserve. Shit, since the first day we meet, I wouldn’t have let me get close or even talk to me. Now I don’t even be with her much after all that.
Somehow instead she forgave me
After all that shit she stuck with me. Her heart is honestly so big, I wish mine was like hers. Sometimes I think she is crazy.
I got up and walk out to the back on the balcony taking a seat.
She said a woman got to do
what she got to do
even if it means denied herself the truth
Brie reached home in after 10pm according to my clock smiling and glowing. I’m happy she had a good time but kills me to know I’m not the reason behind it. “Hey had fun?’’ I ask as I lay on the bed watching her remove her heels. “Yeah, a whole lot,’’ She beamed while rubbing her feet. “Good, I’ve been thinking why you stay with me?’’ leave it to me to remove her glow and smile in less than a second. She sighed and walked over to the bed getting on it. “It may seem crazy to men and girls. But a real woman will stick by their guy until they KNOW there is nothing left to fix.’’ She warmly smiled at me kissing my cheek before flopping down beside me. “How do you know it is true?’’ I asked her. She looked at me tiredly “It is true until one stop denying the truth.’’ She simply said as she got up and walk to the bathroom.
‘Cause when you’re in too deep
you wake up when it’s too late
you fallen in love in the worst way
She walked out from the bathroom a bit leaning against the bathroom door. “It is like you are floating around and found this lovely pasture in the woods. But then you want to explore it, so you do. Suddenly you get too lost in it to come out but even though you want to be freed you love it. It is like the worst case but at the same time the best.’’ With that she went back into the bathroom closing the door leaving me puzzled.
And if you don’t go now then you stay
All I thought about was those lines. I felt and knew what she was saying but she forgot the most important. Leave now or I will forever keep her trap. I know it and she knows it. I sigh as I heard the water running.
Cause I’ll never let you leave,
never let you breathe
cause if you looking for heaven,
baby it sure as hell ain’t me
Brie just leave now, leave me it is what best for her. Best for me. I can and maybe am already super control I can become worse, I may start to abuse her physically. I may kill her from hurting her mentally. In either way I’m no good for her. I’m the farthest thing from heaven the closest thing to hell. I know it, she knows it.
