Last words?

Chapter 5

"They say High School is the so called hardest years of life."
Scott's POV
It was a typical Saturday night sitting in my room drawing, I always drew what I felt so I'd never forget what it looked like in my head, reading and writing were my favorite things to do, I could write everything down in history my notebook and after re-reading it I'd begin to imagine visions of a boy standing alone in a crowd of people just trying to blend in with the back ground almost completely unnoticeable as if he never existed to the school. That boy was me, they say things like "it's okay to be a glow stick sometimes we have to break before we shine." But i fine those rather untrue how can we ever shine? If all we feel is like a broken piece of plastic.. Or I remember when my mom told me "it'll get better, Scott you were born so strong." But I also find that so wrong and not true maybe even more I only feel worthless.. like I don't belong here, and I have no one to care and relate with because every friend I ever had made me feel like they were slipping farther and farther away I can't ever make them stay because who wants to stick around a fifteen year old boy who can't stand up for himself and flinches at the thought of being hurt by Austin? I can't even say I would do if it were someone else. I never thought people could be so cruel to one another hasn't anybody ever heard the saying "were all brother and sister in God's eyes"? I just wish it was that way, I just wish I could be myself and be accepted, I just wish I could blend and be hot and play baseball and football like the popular jocks, but most of all I just wish I had a chance in the world where I could make amends with Austin and tell him what he does to me all the time and how much it affects me... I just wish I didn't constantly wish I was dead all the time because life's such a valuable gift and each day you live is a blessing some people don't get that long so I am grateful... But I hate my life! With a passion I always get beat up and never impress anyone but the teachers, never a girl and I never get invited to parties or prep rally's.. I'm always always always forgotten that's how I fear I'll one day leave this world unknown and forgotten.

*Monday morning*
I lazily got out of bed checking my phone looking for any notifications but as usual no one wanted to text me or leave me a message... So I carried on hurrying down the stairs getting a piece of sausage and jogging to my bus stop where Austin eyes met mine and hopefully that's all I hoped would meet my entire body
"Hey it's Bill Nye the Science Guy- Austin said with a death glare."
*laughs erupt and glares lock to my eye sight*
I look away and shrug it off hoping to look somewhat brave, but that backfires where Austin comes closer and smirks
"Awe c'mon, are we gonna cry?- Austin remarks."
"You prick, no one should be crying but you and your lack of common courtesy- Scott retorted."
"Oh is that right?, why don't you make me? Little girl- Austin replies."
I back away hoping the bus is coming around the corner my last resort of safety... My house is 2 and 1/2 blocks away and he could easily out run me, snapped out of my train of thought I felt something burn and ache in my cheek as I realized he had just smacked me dead in the cheek and he began throwing punches and violently shoving me back until my back smacked on the concrete ground and laughs filled the 6:00 a.m. Morning sunrise. As i was about to grab my backpack and run home the bus came around the corner and people's phones slid into there pocket.