Sick and Tired

Mistakes

Trigger warning. Hateful comments, mention of suicide, mention of anorexia, and abuse

The dark sides always terrorize me. I can't stand it. And there's way more of them than the light sides know. The light sides just know about Deceit and Remus. Though there's Envy, Greed, Regret, Pity, and Aggression. All of them tormented me. They were worse than Logan and Roman. At least I can leave my room now the dark sides used to handcuff me to my bed.
I want you back here Virgie
"You want everything Greed"
Yea but I had you and once we get our hands on you again we won't let go
"What?" I'm so confused. They can't get to me. There's a clear boarder that Logan keeps track of. I know he hates me but there's no way he'll let me join them again. I get up off my bed and start putting my makeup on. I have a really big bruise underneath of my cheekbone. I can tell this one will be harder to cover up than the other ones. I put my makeup on covering up my little freckles. I hate them. They just make me look like more of a child than I already am. I walk downstairs to hear a familiar voice.
"Hello Virgil would you like some pancakes?"
"Um No thanks I'm not very hungry right now."
"Oh ok then kiddo."
The truth is I'm never hungry. Not anymore at least. After a while the hunger just seems natural. I start to sit down on the couch when I feel a very familiar tug. This means that Thomas is calling for us. I sink down into the world below. When I show up in the real world Logan and Roman is already there.
  "Hey Virgil can I talk to you for a second?"
I can hear how shaky Thomas's voice is.
  "Uh sure what about?"
   "I had some really bad suicidal thoughts yesterday. I thought about harming myself and I wanted to know if there was anything you wanted to tell me."
   "There's nothing! Absolutely nothing you need to worry about." I said it suspiciously fast. I knew they could tell that I was lying.
Nice one Virge
Deceits voice was comforting even though I knew he was only doing this because I lied. My palms are sweating really badly. I hear a sniffle so I turn my head and I see Patton slightly crying.
"Hey Patton do you know what's going on?" I could tell that Thomas's voice was a little less shaky but I was getting more nervous. Patton knows what Logan and Roman do to me. He's never intervened though. I don't know if its because he's scared or because he doesn't actually like me. I get really scared about what Patton's going to say though. I'd rather deal with Logan and Roman than have to see them hurt Patton.
Patton just slowly nodded at Thomas's question.
"Well can you tell me what's going on then?"
"I do think that it's Virgil making you think these things." I start to get extremely nervous. I started to slightly shake. I thought no one could see how panicked I was but I guess Thomas saw.
"Virgil please tell me what's wrong."
"I can't I'm sorry."
"Why not?"
"Because I made a promise and I'm going to keep that promise for my own safety." I started to feel tears in my eyes. Even though I want to cry so bad I have to keep it together.
"Well I never made a promise." This voice was Patton's. It was surprisingly strong and straight forward. But I know if he tells Thomas that he may be their next target.
"Patton do not tell Thomas." This voice was Logan's cold and heartless.
"Yea Patton please for my sake don't tell Thomas." Roman definitely seemed scared by what Patton was going to say.
"Logan and Roman abuse Virgil." There it was. Patton said it loud and clear. He looked powerful like he could do anything.
"Is this true guys?" Thomas asked
"No"
"Absolutely not." Of course Logan and Roman where in denial about the whole situation.
All I could manage to do was slowly nod. I felt the warm tears streaming down my face. I don't like people seeing me cry. It makes me seem weak.
"Logan. Roman. I am extremely disappointed in you. I mean what were you thinking?"
"He's a bad person." Logan replied. For a guy with no emotions he seemed very scared.
"Yea exactly." Roman added on. He seemed terrified. I honestly don't even know what Thomas is going to do.
"I don't care what you think of Virgil but the only bar people are you two."
"Okay but what are you going to about it." Logan seemed very aggressive now. I don't really know how Thomas will respond.
"I don't know but don't think that you're off the hook. Once I think of something you'll both be sorry." We went back to the mind palace. I ran up into my room and I slammed the door. I just laid there and cried. I felt more anxious when I say Logan step into my room. He looked me dead in the eye as I slowly sat up on my bed. SMACK!
I felt pain as Logan hit me right where the bruise on my cheek is.
"Don't think I'm even close to being done with you. You're just a nuisance. You're nothing but paranoid." How could he. Thomas knows now and he's still being an asshole.
"Hey Virgil" This voice was nicer than the last one. It was Patton.
"Yea Patton."
"Are you alright?"
"You know what no I'm not. I can't believe that Thomas can't fucking come up with something. You'd think his bitch-ass would fucking come up with something like it's not that fucking hard!"
"VIRGIL ANXIETY SANDERS!" Oh crap I just realized I sweated in front of Patton.
"That's a 30 minute time out mister. I added an extra 5 minutes for being rude to Thomas!" For every swear word Patton makes me sit in a time out chair for 5 minutes.
"You know what Patton no! I'm not a fucking child anymore!"
"Virgil you are the youngest and you're 15 which means you're still legally a child. And now it's 40 minutes because you said the f-word and you disrespected me!"
"Dad me being the youngest doesn't mean shit. I'm a teenager now I'm growing up just except it already jeeze."
"That's 45 minutes mister and you're only making it worse."
"Ugh fine whatever."
I felt Patton grab my wrist to drag me to the time out chair. I could feel some of my cuts reopening but. I wanted to hiss in pain so bad but I had to keep it together.
Did the little baby get a time out awww you're so cute!
Shut up Envy
He has a temper too. Such a naughty little baby
Can you like shut your mouth for once.
Honestly Virgie I think they treat you like a baby more than we do.
    I'm sorry what. You made me sleep in a crib until I was twelve.
    That was for budget reasons
   What do you mean. This is the mind palace. You could've literally created one whenever you wanted to.
     You know what you can complain all you want but you'll be silence when I get you back.
   What do you mean when you get me back
    That's for me to know and for you to find out
   Then Envy left. And I was stuck alone with my thoughts.
 

A/N I'm so sorry this is so bad. I tried my best though. Thanks for reading