They'll never get the fear in my heart when I realised I liked girls too. They'll never get rationalising it, saying I can still date boys and ignore my queerness. They'll never get what it feels like to see a queer couple out in public. They'll never get how good yet terrifying it is to say, "Hey, I have a girlfriend." They'll never get what it's like to see a pride parade for the first time. They'll never know the relief when I tell someone I'm queer and they say "oh, okay." They'll never get the laughing at who I am behind my back. They'll never get the excitement at being able to casually mention a girlfriend and have no one react any different. To being able to gush about a girl. They'll never get how good it feels to be queer in public. How it is to see queerness on TV or in books.
It's not a fucking trend. I'm not reading "gay books" just because it's quirky or different. I need to see myself in the pages, on the screen.
Don't you get it?
YOU ARE READING
Confessions of a Queer Girl
RandomA diary of all the things I wish I could scream from the rooftops.
