Athena

Avoiding

   I'm woken up by the sound of a phone ringing, after a couple of minute I reach my arm out to the night stand and try but dont succeede in finding it and I give up on the person that so desperately wants to get a hold of me.

  The phone rings again and I want nothing more than to shut it up but I dont want to lose my comfort, I feel so warm so comfortable, I'm sure my bed never felt better. Suddenly there's a shuffle on the other side of the bed and my body tenses the moment it identifies that I'm not alone. A hand runs up my back in a soothing motion and with the sound of his voice I identify my companion. Sure his voice is deeper than usual, heavy with sleep but comforting none the less making my insides explode in excitement to the memories of last nights activities.

  "Morning Love." Kenny, he reaches over my body and settles back to his spot bringing the annoying devise with him.

  "Here you go sweetheart."  And then he settles back down beside me with his arm draped over my waist.

  "Yes?" I answer not really paying attention to who is calling or what time it was.

"Athena, Baby, I'm sorry for going MIA on you. How are you doing? Can I come see you?" My eyes snap open, anxiety fills me and a smile takes over my face.

  I push Kenny's arm of me and move to get of the bed making him sit and turn all his attention over to me following my every move as I collect the clothes that were discarded to the side the night before.

  Throwing Kenny's items over to him so he can also get dressed.

  "Ofcourse you can Papi, I can't wait to see you." I hop around the room while pulling some joggers up my legs resting my phone between my shoulder and head so that I wouldn't have to put it down.

  "Good cause I'm gonna be arriving in a couple of hours. I cant wait to see that sexy smile of yours." I laugh a little at Rubens words and look up to find Kenny still sitting on the bed watching me, not making a move to get up and out.

  "Will you be staying with me?" I question sitting down on the desk chair across the room away from my male companion.

  "Ofcourse I am, unless you have some one else warming your bed already." Again I laugh a little pushing my hair away from my face. I look back at Kenny who doesn't seem very pleased with my conversation or the fact that I have been avoiding him from the minute I got up and out of bed.

  "Well yeah I keped it warm for you, all I need is one side, all we need is one side." I say turning my back towards Kenny so that I can have a little more privacy.

Ruben laughs at my playfulness and I smile, I've missed him. Having him close is something I loved while staying at Jamie's. And growing up. He is my bestfriend, my rock, I've never hide anything from him and I dont plan on starting now.

"So how many?" He ask me wich wipes the smile of my face.

"I'm not sure."

"Lana, you know that's not good for you." He sigh

"I know but I needed it, or I thought I did." I answer resting my head on my hand and propping my elbow on the desk.

"I'm on my way nena, I'll be there soon."

"Please hurry, I need you so much right now, there's so many things going on Papi." I sound so desperate so broken it scares me.

"I'm sorry for disappearing like that nena. I promise it wont happen again."

"Ok, I'll see you soon. I'll make some space for your things in my closet and dresser." He laughs at my offer making me smile and raise my head to look up at the ceiling while leaning back in the chair.

"I thought you already had some room for my things, I have a whole empty dresser waiting for you to move over." I giggle at his answer. I'm sure he does we've always made room for eachother in our lives and I'm willing to bet he probably has feminine products at his place for me just incase.

"Wouldn't you love that. Having me at arms reach day and night." I hear movement and turn to see Kenny tying his shoes.

"Dont I already?" Ruben questions but my focuse is set on the angry movements of Kenny getting ready to leave.

  "Ofcourse you do, all you have to do is call. Uuum Papi, could you give me a couple of minutes I'll call you back."

"Sure, dont keep me waiting to long." I hang up the call and stand to make my way over to Kenny who is now pulling his shirt down and pocketing his wallet and phone.

"You leaving?" At my question his head snaps toward me and his angry expression is enough to let me know not to push for answers but I didn't really have to because he answered my question with out hesitation and the way the words made me feel wasn't something I wanted to feel ever again.

"Ofcourse I'm leaving, did you think I would stay after all that?" My heart stops. What does he mean all that? He was the one who initiated it all.

"Excuse me?" My word come out a little more aggressive than I was hoping but I didnt care and it didnt affect him.

"No, excuse me for wanting more than you could offer, honestly I dont know what I was thinking. I should have known you wouldn't want this." He grabs his belt of the floor and makes his way towards the door and stops before walking out.

"I know we dont really know each other, but I was hoping to change that soon. And i thought that maybe, maybe you were ready, but I see you aren't." And with that he leaves. He doesn't yell, doesn't slam the door and doesn't insult me. Just walks away leaving me with questions.

  I was left standing in the middle of the room confused and alone again not really knowing where I went wrong.

  I wasn't expecting for him to fall in love with me but after last night I was hoping that we would atleast try and see where things went, sure we had a lot to talk about and figure out but I was willing to try and understand. He proved to be trust worthy when he took care of Alpha and brought him home, but this, leaving me after I gave him my all was something I thought he wouldn't do.

  I had never let anyone see me the way he did, touch me the way he did. No one ever wanted, so I thought that maybe he would stick around but I guess not. I guess I was wrong.

I hope to never see him again and if I do I hope to be better, to love myself more than I do now, to be ready to maybe remind him of what he left the second he walk out that door.

But for now I'm going to focus on me and my needs and I need no one but Ally to get threw the emotional rollercoaster I'm about to ride.

I wouldn't be called Athena if I didnt know how to plan a war I was in no doubt going to win. I may have strategized before but never for myself.

  I need the time to plan this out perfectly, because if I loose this battle I loose myself and there is no way I'll let that happen.

They call me Athena!

And this is my beggining!

To Be Continued?

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