TW??? mention of suicide
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after chan's death, felix decides to write to him one last time. one day, chan sends one back.
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dear chris,
i wish i had spent more time with you. that was my first mistake. when i found out we both were both from australia i was thrilled that we had some common ground. i looked up to you so much. when i first had met you; you were absolutely perfect and i instantly fell in love with you. then, i started to spend time with our other friends more. that was my first mistake. it's not that i didn't want to spend time with you... you just distanced yourself so i assumed you needed space. i should've been there with you. i'm so sorry. we were doing so great and all of a sudden you leave. i still miss you. you cheered me on everything and i wish i had done the same. Everytime i was sad, you brightened my days with a simple smile & advice. i should've done the same. in the note, you said move on. i don't think i can chris. you never specifically said why you did it. i told you to tell me everything. we had both agreed on that. i miss the kisses you gave me and when we cuddled i felt safe. you're still my everything chris but i'll see you again angel :) - felix
dear felix,
thank you for everything. :)
a/n: idk what this is but i forgot to post this. i mustve had this great idea to bring chan back from the dead somehow but i forgot SO give me idea of how he's still alive pls SHHAHA
