Nothing And Everything (Poem Book)

To me, To you

I'm stressed and depressed
And have anxiety because of this society
I have these fears that bring me to tears
I have hope that helps me cope
And I can't deny that I want to cry
I can't deny that I want to die
I have been thinking about suicide for a very long time
But I've never seen it as me
I've never had the gut to put that gun to my head or that rope around my neck or that razor to my wrist
But to me nothing made since
To me I'm just invisible
To me Im just unwanted
To me I can easily be discarded even if I'm very well guarded
To you I'm perfect but to me I'm just not worth it
To you I'm beautiful but I just think you delusional
To you I'm smart but deep inside I know im falling apart
To you I'm kind but to me I think your just blind
To you I'm your sunshine but you dont know what I'm hiding behind this mask of mine
For I just feel like a simple task
And when I take off my mask and break down and ask if you will still like me with all my insecurities
Because I know I cant take it, I know I can't fake it
I have so many mistakes and it makes my heart ache
Then you say confessing is a start and I want you to know you will always have my heart
But then I found out you lied and your little confession worsened my depression
Then I had a new question what am I living for? But you weren't there to answer
And I tried to go to a therapy session
And make good impressions
But my mood never changed it always stayed the same
So I found away to deal with this pain
But then I cut a big vain and all the pain went away.

                            ~shy

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Hey so I'm sorry if this is to long and if there are any errors. Anyway hope you enjoyed it.

Also yay! I made my goal which was 300 words but I did 326 so pretty happy about that.... Well that's all so byezzzz.