always and forever || 𝘯𝘤𝘵

1.6

“i don’t know, nana... he just doesn’t seem to want to talk to me.”

i sighed as i laid on my bed, jaemin sitting down next to me and listening to my ranting. 

the both of us somehow felt a connection, it was as though the both of us were bosom buddies for the longest time. 

through the short span of 5 days, we had grown extremely close, and he had earned my utmost trust and affection. 

“maybe he just needs some time. yeah, that’s probably it. give him some time, jin,” he reassured me. i giggled at the nickname as the both of us sat in comfortable silence. johnny had informed me that it was my last day stuck to the bed; and i was ecstatic. lucky for me, i seemed to have healed extremely quickly, thus my quick escape from being  bedridden. grinning, i shook jaemin’s hand in excitement,” jaems, just wait for tomorrow! we’re gonna have the time of our lives! ”

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this was not how i expected my freedom day to go. being stuck in an office, a pair of deadly eyes staring me down. His icy gaze almost hidden by strands of dark blue hair but still causing shivers down my spine. i bit my inner cheek, a bad habit i had gained whenever i was nervous. staring at the marbled floor, i dared not to meet the eyes of the man before me. 

after an excruciating half hour, i felt his stare leave my frame. i let out a shaky sigh of relief, finally lifting my head up to look around the room. a mahogany table sat in the middle of the room, files piled on it. shelves lined the walls, surrounding a comfortable looking sofa, unfortunately held hostage by the male with blue hair. he looked deep in thought, a white file clutched in his right hand while he skimmed through its contents. i watched the mysterious guy before me. closing the file shut, he turned to jaemin who had been standing next to me,” she has to go. she’s a threat.”

he stood up to leave the room, jaemin trying to catch up with him, leaving me stunned and standing alone ,” jaehyun hyung!”

jaehyun. 

his name was jaehyun.

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as though a stare-down wasn’t bad enough, my day got even worse. i sat down in the living room, haechan, jaemin and a few of the older members standing behind me. Next to me, jaehyun had started eyeing the couple before us. my parents. my adoptive parents. i couldn’t bear to look at them. every time i did, memories flashed through my mind, my scars burned, as though they had never healed in the first place. breaking the silence, mother spoke up, “she needs to come with us”

“with all due respect, sir, madam, your daughter is in grave danger, she won’t be saf-“

“why do you care?” i cut jaehyun and off. for a moment, i couldn’t believe it was me. but the anger that was seemingly well compressed up until he said what he did just seemed to have exploded, my distraught, my pain. i couldn’t hold it any longer... garnering all my courage, i locked eyes into my parents, “both of you have never cared. you’ve never loved me. i was nothing but a puppet to you. all you wanted was for me to clean up the house. do well in my studies. obey all of your stupid orders. and when i didn’t?” unpaused. tears welling up in my eyes,” i still have the scars, mom. if i can even call you that. all those times the both of you hit me. your words scarred my heart, im human too. stupid.. worthless... ugly... the both of you never cared, i don’t need you guys to care for me not now, not ever.” 

tears streamed down my cheeks as the wall of the dam i had kept up for  finally crumbled. i buried my face in my hands. i couldn’t even control my feelings. i guess they were right. 

i let out uneven breaths, my eyes blood-shot from crying. an arm rested around me. i felt safe in his embrace. “sorry. please leave. we don’t need you here anymore. doyoung hyung, johnny hyung, please escort them out.”

i buried my face into jaehyun’s chest, tears staining his top. he stroked my hair comfortingly, muttering words of comfort into my ear. my breathing stabilised and my eyelids were heavy. i soon drifted to sleep, the only utopia i believed existed, besides heaven.

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