Hero
Here I am, at 5 am with a fucking beer in my hand sitting on the floor of this huge house which is slowly giving me anxiety already. It seems like every little thing is watching me and I don't feel like I have privacy at all. The only thing that is going through my mind is them and the picture of them, that stupid picture that is annoying as hell and can't go away. Just why my brother tho? Of all the people in that damn house, he was the one to kiss the girl who I love the most and who means the whole fucking world to me. I feel like a fucking fool, like a fucking betrayed dumbass. I don't know of what there is more on the floor currently, my tears or pieces of my broken heart. Probably both the same, because as I said, there's only a body of an once hopeful and happy boy with the love of his life. The sound of the door opening snaps me out of my depressing thoughts and I am already standing ready to beat the thief or whoever that is. But, the person who stands at the door shocks me because the person standing there is nobody else, but Catarina. My face expression changes from the broken one to the indefinitely one. "What are you doing here?" I ask trying to be as cold as I can, but seeing her like this is breaking me even more. She is wearing the same clothes, but it's more dirtier, her makeup is messed up and so is hair. She still looks gorgeous for me, tho. For me, she'd always look gorgeous no matter what.
"I am sorry for coming like this here, Hero, but I just wanted to apologize for everything. I am sorry for kissing your brother, I know I shouldn't have kissed him back, I don't even know him, I don't want to know him either, I only care about you and I only love you, but I am also sorry if I was ever a weight for you, I know dealing with me and my mental break downs sometimes isn't easy at all and you are one of the rare people who truly helped me which I am so thankful for. I also know it wasn't easy to get a complete stranger in your house, but you you still did it and you made me feel so happy and loved so thank you for that. I am so sorry for freaking over you and Melanie, maybe I should have believed you because even with your past you are a good man and I know you would never hurt me on purpose" her voice is raspy and slow when she is talking meaning exactly that she is hurt and broken, just like me. When she is speaking I don't look at her, I just stare at the floor intensively like it's gonna solve my problems. Currently, we are two broken souls in love with each other and we can't help it.
"I don't know what to tell you, Catarina" I say running my fingers through my hair and she still looks at me with those gorgeous brown eyes full of tears and pain. "And why not?" she asks and once again I don't look at her, I just shake my head. "Because I am not good with words" "With what are you good then?" in the moment she says that I move my look and stare deeply in her eyes trying to reach her soul. "I am good with actions" I grab her cheeks and crash my lips against her passionately and desperately like never before and like there is no tomorrow.
