Angel And The Dark Knight

37. A NEW BEGINNING

Sun rays hit my face and I wanted to sleep for some more or I can say I don't want this beautiful dream to end and disappear just by the blink of my eyes. I want to live it somemore because once I open my eyes I will loose once again. I turned to hide my face from sun rays and felt warmth which was soothing my heart and I again drift back to my beautiful dream where my Suraj is hugging me warmly and tenderly as if I'm made of a porcelain. He is caressing my cheek and peck my forehead. I'm feeling so wanted, how I wish this dream to never come to an end.

"Chakor...open your eyes" Suraj is asking me to open my eyes but I can't due to shyness.

"Chakor, open your eyes. It's 9am of morning"now Suraj is annoying even iny dream.

"Chakor , get up or else I will kiss your lips" I felt soft tapping on my cheeks. what!! It was not a dream!!! It's reality. I haven't brush my teeth, my breath is foul smelling and my mouth? Ohh my god! I can't let him kiss me now.

"Chakor, I'm gonna count till 3 if you don't get up I gonna kiss you...1..2.."

And I sat on the bed before with covering my mouth with my hands before he complete his countings.

His eyes matched with mine and a victory smirk appear on his face but slowly his eyes travels below to my hands cover mouth to my throat in  such a slow motion that would kill you. To my chest and he lick his corner of mouth. That movement of his tongue was unconsciously because the next movement his eyes matched with mine again and he muttered a sorry. That made me more hot in this morning, air conditioning room.

I was wearing his white shirt which he had wore yesterday. And nothing underneath which I realised just now. I can feel my...oh shit what if Suraj had seen. My hands instantly covered my body with the help of quilt.

"You...you go na. I..I will prepare your breakfast in half an hour" ohh God why I'm stuttering. It's so embarrassing.

"Why are stuttering Mrs. Suraj Rajvanshi?" And again his mischievous site appears.

"It's not like as if I have never seen what you are trying to hide behind this thin sheet." Hearing this makes my cheeks burn due to embarrassment though I'm liking it.

"Hell... Every time you come in front of me I just want to devour you and feel the softness again my skin" he continued "every night I'm dreaming to do all dirty things to you which you can't even imagine" now he is on bed so close to me. I can feel his hot breathe.

"Tired of daily schedule still find myself getting hard just by seeing you...hell, sometimes I go to bed with boner or else has to do by imaging you. Do you have any idea how frustrating all this for me" God!!! I can see his erection inside his track pant.
I just want ground to open and swallow me. Anyhow I just want to hide from his intense gaze.

"Tell me Chakor? Don't you ever feel anything for me? Don't you get excite seeing me half naked" how can I tell you Suraj, how much I craves for your single touch. Your hateful touches even gave me hopes that one day you will touch me with love, want and desire.

"I'm sorry, if I make you uncomfortable. I'm going to take shower" and again my stupidity. How can I feel so shy that I disappoint him again and again. I was about to open the bathroom door finally my stupid brain work and my clumsy body reacted.

He was about to turn and I tripped on my steps. Wow. Just great. But it was actually great. He caught me by my waist and my lips landed on his. Woww. I finally kissed him. For once he thought it was accident and tried to make me stand I catch is hand and hold it besides his head and deepen the kiss. It was soft and tender initially but later it turned into hungry kisses. We both were fighting for dominance as if we loose we will loose our lives. Kiss was having our all emotions which we hide in our hearts since long. As if we were trying to tell how much we craves for each other. Finally we break the kiss due to the lack of oxygen. I hide my shyness by lowering my head as much as possible but his next movement took my breath.

"Let continue in the shower" and lifted me in air and as a reflex action my legs wrapped around his hips and lips crashed with his lips. I'm feeling so hot. I think I really need this shower.

We are totally lost in eachother. Now he is kissing me jaws , next and trying to open the bottons of shirt which was sticking to my torso like a second skin.

He opened upper three bottons and proceed to next while kissing every inch but I held his hand to prevent him to proceed. I don't want him to see my scares again. I don't have courage to look in his eyes if he again saw my scares what if those scares stop him to love me? I can't take risk. I don't want to loose him and these moments again.

"Please Suraj...I begged him through my eyes to not go further.

"Do you love me Chakor?" He asked and I nodded.

"Then learn to trust me as well and believe in me and my love for you" and kissed my forehead affectionately.

He turned me and removed the shirt. Thanks to him I'm not facing him. I don't think I would able to look in his eyes. He started to kiss my scares as if he wants to heal them. Too bad of my luck they can't disappear. He turned me on face him. I kept my eyes close.

"Open your eyes Chakor and look into my eyes" how can I explain you Suraj this is my biggest fear to see no love for me in your eyes.

"My love never will decrease for you Chakor. Infact it's increase by more than hundred times. You are so strong Chakor. You have fight alone, when I should be there for you with you I was not there. I just hate myself" and hit is knuckle on mirror on our right side wall.

"Suraj!!" I tried to hold his hand. Blood was covering his fist and dripping on the floor but he didn't stop and hitted the mirror more two times.

"I hate myself. I just hate my existence. I don't deserves you Chakor. I don't..." This is scaring hell out of me. I started crying didn't realise when.

"Suraj, you are scaring me. Please I'm begging you. Please stop hurting yourself" my worked were breaking due to hiccups in between crying.
Finally I got his attention and was shocked to see my condition. I cupped my face with his both hands. He doesn't even feel pain.

"I'm... I'm sorry Chakor. I didn't mean to scare you. Please don't cry. I promise I will never hurt you again"and hugged me tightly. What he think of himself. But this time his hug infuriated me.

I slapped him. Yes I slapped him.
He was shocked and didn't react.

"What? You wanted to get punished, right? So I slapped you as a punishment. What you think of yourself Mr. Suraj Rajvanshi? Whenever you want you hurt me , hurting yourself when you know very well I will get more hurt seeing you suffering" more tears started to flow.

"Chakor..." He tries to soothe me but I slapped his hand.

"Remember one thing Suraj Rajvanshi, only I have rights to punish you , hurt you. You were the cause of my pain, suffering. You were the one who left me in my toughest time so you are the one who get punish not me" and started sobbing like a little kid.

"Chakor...baby"I glared him to speak further.

"Don't dare to speak when I'm not done"and he followed my command like a scared kid.

"From today onwards I will treat you how you have treated me. I will hurt you every minute, every second of you day" and started hitting his bare chest.

"Ahhh Chakor!!" He hissed in pain and I stopped to see if I really hit him hard.

"My hand is hurting"oh shit I forgot about his wounded hand. Lucky blooding was stopped.

My stupid husband and his short temperament.