Am I broken? (DanxPhil phanfic) heavy theme

The Flashback

Dan POV:
First day of school and im already late.shit!
My alarm went off on my phone 20billion times... "stop rambling get dressed and sprint to the bus... I'm missing something my phone where is it?!" "DA- oh yeah I live alone stupid homophobic c**ts"
*Ping*
My phone .... got it
REMINDER: "GO TO THE MFKNG BUS RIGHT NOW IDIOT!!"
Shit gotta run now.
On my way to the bus I see my dad I have horrible flashbacks everytime i see them.
*BEGINNING OF FLASHBACK*
Dan:Mum Dad when you both get home can we talk?...
Mum:sure,you can tell us anything
Dad:mhm sure

Private msgs:

Dad:Dan you are a little shit when you get back I will beat you black and blue you worthless shit!
Dan:... why are you like this ?

*END FLASHBACK*

The bus is here finally I wait to get onto the bus and see him...how does he look so perfect completely oblivious to what's around him.
"You little shit he has no idea you exsist and even if he did why would he talk to you!"
My mind circled around that one thought and I ended up walking to school I didn't want him seeing me like this.

~time skip~

It was last lesson I had PE so I obviously was skipping if I had gone to that lesson I would have to see him. He would be getting changed. I cant keep thinking these things its disgusting.

I see my only friend Louise (Lou for short) she was running?Towards me why did she run towards me not walk? Does she have something to say has she found out! Shit if she ha-

"Dan...?! Hello earth to Dan"
"What sorry Lou got dis-"
"It's fine shut up and listen to me"
She talked about something for what seemed forever I couldn't tell her to fuck off could she was my only friend I checked the time and realised I had to go I had to be home before he does!

"Lou I'll text you I have to go"
"Dan- what fine you better"
"Bye" I said running away in hopes to get home before him. But i was to late he was at my door fist clenched ready to beat me.

D:hey Lou he's back what do I do!?
L: wtf dan come over to mine right now!
D: he saw me shit!
L: Dan get your arse here right now!
D: I am trust me!
L:back foot is open dads home be quiet!
D:fine!

A few minutes later I arrive at Louises house I have to stop to get my breath. I do what Lou said to be quiet and i was. I'm very good at being quiet it's one of the only good things about being - I got cut off in my thought be Lou asking me what happened.

All I can think about is him. Phil lester. I look at Louise and she knows exactly what I'm thinking about.who I'm thinking about. She suggests that I text him.

"Dan don't be such a wimp just text him you never know unless you ask!"
"Lou we have been over this if he gets a text from my phone it will be you texting him saying that I died or something like that"
"Fine I guess I'll take matters into my hands."

D:Hey Phil you probably have no idea who I am but I have been meaning to ask you something
I scream at Louise for a few minutes until my phone pings.

P:hey it's Dan...Howell right what did you wanna ask me?
D:it's awkward over text can you meet?
P:sure! 10mins at (all locations are made up) Sandybrook park?
D: umm yeah that works cya there!:)

"Omfg he wants to meet with me like face to face discussion Lou wtf do I do!!"
"First of all chill tf out!" Lou said sternly
"Second of all meet him! You pleb"
"But what if it's a prank and he stands you up dan he probably will like everybody does"

I snap out of the thought and start walking there as it's a 5minute walk if I walk fast.

D:I'm here where are you...?
I think about sending him the message but I don't he'll just be scared off by my clingy-ness.

P:Hey dan I'm 2 minutes away you there yet?
D: ye I'm here say in the swings (💨😂)
P: I see you 👀

How is this man so amazing?! That was creepy dan shut up!

A•N hey it's me this story is probably terrible sorry for the cliffhanger it's kinda my thing the man by dans door will be introduced properly soon I'm not sure when but soon after the good bit in the next chapter stay safe ily gn/gn <3