Three months I found Love (Harry styles FanFic)

Prologue 

I’ve been sitting on this chair in front of my doctor’s table for like a forever. I called my best friend, my only friend in this world to join me in this moment of sadness. I’ve stopped my chemo therapy last year because it really has no use. I know I cannot survive even if I stayed. I’ve been sick for a long time all I need is to rest. Even though I know I’ll die within this year I still want to know how many months, if I will ever reach my nineteenth birthday or not. I feel weaker than last year but not depressed anymore, I accepted it and my best friend too.

I sat silently waiting for something I know will happen. The room is white and boring, this place never fail me to feel sicker every time I have to do my chemo sessions, so glad that finally I don't have to come here anymore, but will I miss it? Will I want to be here when I die? Or is it even painful to die? It was so cold because of air condition and it made the hairs on the back of my neck to stand up. The smell of this whole place is like a strong disinfectant for the most people, but this place just smells misery, pain and hope. I touch the wooden table in front of me and touch it and feel it one last time, even if I hate the smell I still breathe it in. I sigh. If I ever become a ghost I want to scare Dr. Williams all the time. I let myself chuckle silently and think of how his face will look like if will appear sitting here with a white dress and pallor skin.

“Sorry for the waiting, Melody.” A man opened the glass door with the age of forties.

His face was red and swollen. As he pulls out his chair and sits on it he keeps on sniffing. He refused to look me in the eyes as I really try to catch his blue eyes. He props his elbows on the table and look down for a couple of seconds.  I felt a painful stab in my chest as I saw him look up to me now, tears were spilling down his cheeks and his fingers look white and numb. I stared at him speechless and I cannot form any words in my mouth to tell him it’ll be okay, he’s my doctor for a very long time and I feel his fondness for me. He treats me like his own child and even joke that he wants me to marry his son someday who is same as my age. But now as I see his face and the sadness that shows in his eyes there’s like a hot something down my throat and tears were forming in my eyes now.

He cleared his throat and wiped his tears with a tissue in the cabinet under his table. Tears were escaping my eyes now and I couldn’t help but to sob. He handed me a tissue and smiled at me and I couldn’t help but to chuckle. His smile is soothing; his smile can just make you feel safe and fatherly. I am going to miss him very much.

“H-how many months?” I asked him even though I am stuttering.

“You only have three months, Mel.” Tears again spill down his cheeks and this time I laugh. I couldn’t believe how softy he is.

“Don’t cry. It’s still three months. Remember what you keep on telling me if I will ever reach adolescent? You said you will make me marry your son.” I joked and I wish he’ll laugh but he didn’t.

“Stop it, young lady. I know you don’t like Sammy, because you said he was a chicken.” He stopped for second to steady himself. “Because you are fearless and you need someone who isn’t afraid of how little time you have left to spend with that person.” he added.

“I don’t think so, I don’t want to deal with goodbyes like this, and it’s J-just dramatic. So I’m not fearless after all, so put yourself together, Doctor ‘cause I’m fine with it.” I give my big best smile and he laugh. “You are just making me suffer if you will be sad and cry like this.” I added.

“Oh, you are like a daughter to me and my wife. You cannot just ask us not to weep for you, but we promise we will try.” He touches my hand, his soft hand and when I look at his face, it shows no more tears.

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