Dejected

Prologue

Everyone has the right to love and to be loved.
Everyone can experience pain and broken heart.

LOVE, 4 letters but makes your world go up and down.
PAIN a very good companion of LOVE.

Requirements for a lifetime relationship
LOYALTY
TRUST
RESPECT

Everybody wants that. BUT when is the right time?

Together let us discover what is Dejected. Some already feels this one. Some are not aware. And someone out there feels this right now.

Come! And be a guest of this wonderful journey of love.

Chapter 1

2:30 am ng magising ako sa isang magandang panaginip na nais kong maging totoo na lamang. Pagmulat ko palang ng mata ko pumatak na lang yung luha ko at napatulala. Sobrang sikip sa dibdib napatanong nalang ako sa aking sarili bakit?

Madaming bakit ang gusto mong itanong pero hindi mo alam kung saan magsisimula o may dapat pa bang simulan kung alam mong tapos na matagal na matagal na.

Ipinikit ko muli ang aking mga mata nagbabasakaling magbalik ako sa panaginip ko.
Sana hindi na ako magising kung ikaw man din ang kapiling mga katagang aking binagkas bago ako tuluyang nilamon sa kadiliman.

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Napabangon ako sa tunog ng alarm clock ko.
Another day. Another tiring day! Buntong hininga ko.

I get myself ready for my work.

Good morning Ms.Joy!
Good morning teacher Joy!
Good morning Ma'am Joy!

Bati ng mga studyanteng nadadaanan ko. I greeted them back with a smile.

Yes' your right! I am a teacher and I love my job so much. I'd been a teacher for 2 years and counting in one of the international schools in my place. In fact, this is my alma mater. I am Joy Aquino 23 years of age. I am currently teaching History subjects both in college and basic education.

I stand 5'3, have an athletic body frame. Thick eyebrows which my co-teacher envious at me, and also I have a wonderful eyes as what they say. Sometimes they called it eye catcher. Morena complexion. I don't do make ups, only lipstick and blush on.

I am going to my advisory class but before that I put some lipstick, a very important one to me. Still remember during my college years one of my prof said to us ballpen is never the bestfriend of the teacher it is always the lipstick. I wonder why, all we know that pen is always the bestfriend of a teacher. She answer us, never go to a class without a lipstick, don't let them see your pale and dull face because it may interpret you as a weak person.Lipstick identifies what kind of a teacher you are. Dark red, teachers who are the disciplinarian, who are strict. Red color, teachers that are neutral, can be strict, can be approachable , Pink color , teachers that are the modest one, goes with the flow. Up now, I believe it. But sometimes lipstick facades you, that's what my prescription about lipstick.

If you ask me what color I use, I use red because it suits to my complexion. I also don't want to be strict nor go with the flow. I want my students to open up on me, I also want to be firm when it comes on decision making so that no students would abuse my kindness.Lastly they will know where to stand. It's better to know their limitations so that Respect is always visible in the school.

I am here in my advisory class which are the most cute and jolly freshmen (grade7). I would say that I like my new advisory this year, and I am very happy unlike Ma'am Regine she's having a hard time in her section the sophomore section honesty, sa sobrang honest nila pinapakita nila talaga ang kanilang mga ugali but what i admire the most from her, she handle her students very well. In my section charity, they are very cute, and bubbly so energetic at the same time what i like them the most they have a charitable heart, they help each other.

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Days fly so fast and summer is approaching. Students are very busy making their projects and reviewing. While teachers do also, very lot of forms to be pass and believe me you woudn't want to know the rest.

I am here in my classroom. I prefer to work here than in the faculty room not that I don't like the teachers but I prefer to be in a tranquil place.

I heared someone knocking at the door. If you ask where are my students they are at the gym busy practicing for their Mapeh.

I saw someone specifically my senior student

Yes love come in. As I call her.

Can I speak to you Mommy. She said

Yeah, right they called me mommy especially my advisory class and right now this girl is my first advisory assign.

Yeah sure Sasay. What's bothering you love?

She look at me with a teary eye.

My' You experience to be hurt? She ask.

Yes of course love, it is part of our life. Why do you ask? Someone hurt you?

Ahmmm' There is someone specifically my Ex.

Why? I ask her

My' he is with someone else now.

Oh? It's that so. I think you still love him am I right?

She nod and starts to cry.

Hush down love, May I know the reason why you broke?

I don't know my' we just split up, no talks we just stop communicating.

At my mind, Seems really familiar.

You know what say' sometimes closure is good. Believe me or not. Let me elaborate it to you.
Imagine there is a rope you hold one of the edge and the other is your ex between that there is a very long gap. That gap andyan ang mga unspoken truths and feelings which is hindi ninyo na relay sa bawat isa. And the time someone sa inyo ang bumitaw may isang maiiwan na naguguluhan hanggang ngayon kasi kumapit pa na nagbabasakaling pwede pa. And that is you Say'. Try to ask him all para maliwanagan ka. Say' I woudn't say na bata ka pa marami kapang mahahanap na iba but I would say this to you instead, go on live your life what you deserve and live without regrets, time comes that you unconsciously moving on.

Hope it helps you say'

Thank you my' pero my' natatakot ako sa magiging outcome after I confront him. What if my' masira ko yung relasyon nila.

Say' knowing that' di yan maiiwasan but look at the brighter side say' Just prepare for the outcome. If talagang mahal nila ang isa't isa Trust would lead their ways.

She is hesitant, worried is written in her face.

Hindi kita pipilitin na gawin yun nasasayo parin naman kung ano ang gusto mo. But always remember that, you will be stock on the past regreting something while pwde pa ngayon at habang may panahon pa.

Thanks my' sobra! she hugs me , she stay for awhile and got out.

I hope for the best. Why I feel like a dejavu.

Remebering my past. Ganun na ganun din ako dati ang pinagkaiba lang it took me 5 years and counting ng hindi natanong sakanya, hindi ko na hingi ang paliwanag niya and now he is very happy with someone else while I am here glued in the past.