What its like to be in Foster Care.

The beginning of it all.

Ever wonder what its's like to be in foster care? Your not missing much. As I first walked in to this stranger's home, with my little brother; Cody, I was automatically greeted with another girl, who's name is May. Next thing I know, an adult male walks in, whos name is Ryan, and then a little boy, Cade, along with another little girl, April. I was scared, I had too many issues, thoughts racing through my head that I couldn't catch to even know what they were, so many fears, so many stressors. I had no idea what to do. The nest thing I knew, my case manager had left, I hated her, and I was in the back living room with the rest of the family excluding Ryan, and watching Boss Baby. I hadn't noticed they had a dog, that was until I got to their back living room, their dog barked at the glass sliding door until they let him in. But when they let him in, he jumped at me and I got scared considering I'd been attacked by a dog in the past. After about two to three hours passed by, my new foster mom had came home from work. Automatically everyone dragged me over to meet her. Her name was Marie. She was beautiful, loving, and kind. "Yuuki, this is Mom, she has no other name!" were the words spoken to me, but I didn't really care. All I wanted to do was go home to my Mom. But no matter how hard I tried, and cried, I could never go home. Marie soon had wondered why I was in foster care and asked about it. "My step-Dad had hurt my mom because he was on god knows how many drugs, first he locked her out of the house in cold weather, then when she was able to get back inside the house, he had slammed her wrist in the door. She thought she had broke it but thankfully wasn't bruised. I wasn't there for it, but Cody was." I had flashbacks, crying with my mom in our neighbor's bathroom, hiding, with Cody. We had no idea what was going to happen, we just couldn't wrap our heads around everything. Before we knew it, it had come down to the fact that we had to call the police, something we never wanted to do, something we hated to do. I remember my step dad screaming at me "Really daughter? You wont even talk to me? Is this how you want it to be?" I stayed quiet, but I started crying, I wanted to run to him and say sorry, but I knew the risk was too great, I could have gotten hurt. I ran to my mom, I didn't want anything to do with him anymore, I wanted everything to go back to normal. But when to police arrived, my step-dad ran back to our house since it was right there, and barricaded himself inside with our dog. Police escorted us to another town where he wouldn't be able to get us since he had no drivers license. I had little to no sleep as well as my mom and our family friend who came along with us. I stayed up and watched a movie, and when I tried to go to sleep I ended up thinking about everything that had happened. The next night, my step-dad an d one of his friends came and picked us up. I was scared. I had no clue what was happening, I just knew I was ready to go home and for everything to go back to normal. Two days later, I was banished to foster care. For three hours I screamed and DCS. They had to call in a therapist to calm me down, but even after that I still wasn't exactly "calm". 

Hey guys thank you for reading!! This is a true story, I just changed some names.. Anyway PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE show me some love, I really need it right now. Also let me know if you want me to continue writing about this. 

                                                                                                               yours truly, Japan <3