nobody can know - k.sw + j.hn / m.kv + j.cm

PROLOGUE

       The alarm rang annoyingly through Sunwoo's ears during the early hours of the morning, and as much as he didn't want to wake up, he turned over and pressed the small button on his phone, the alarm ceasing it's aggravating noise.
       He turned over, nudging his boyfriend Haknyeon lightly until his eyes slowly opened and he cuddled closer to Sunwoo.
       "Baby, as much as I don't want you to leave, the others can see us like this. They're gonna start waking up in, like, a half hour," Sunwoo chuckled.
       " 'M warm. Don't wanna get up," Haknyeon responded, though it was muffled by Sunwoo's chest.
       Letting out a light sigh, Sunwoo sat up, tucking one of his arms under Haknyeon's knees and the other under his back, before he pulled up and lifted him. Haknyeon thrashed around for a moment before relaxing, Sunwoo carrying him over to his bed and laying him down carefully. He pressed a light kiss to Haknyeon's lips before heading back to his own bed and sitting back down, pretending to be asleep once more.
       Haknyeon sighed, negative thoughts taking over his mind. How long would the two of them have to go on like this? What if they ever get caught? He feels panic settling in, throat closing up at the thought of his fellow members hating him and Sunwoo. He rarely heard them talk about things like relationships behind the camera, much less sexuality, so who knows? What if one, or maybe even all of them are against them? The possibilities were endless, and quite frankly Haknyeon couldn't think of any that were positive.
       Haknyeon held back a whimper, feeling tears well up in his eyes. He'd worked for this all his life, what if he fucked it all up because of love? All 21 years of his life down the fucking drain just because idols aren't allowed to live their life how they want.
       Tugging harshly at his hair, Haknyeon couldn't hold his emotions back anymore, hot tears beginning to stream down his face as he reflected on whether him and Sunwoo would ever find peace.
       And just like that, Haknyeon fell asleep, sadness and anxiety filling every vein and crevice of his body, wondering if he would ever be okay in the end. If he would ever find where he belonged. But before he could ponder much further, sleep took over Haknyeon, leaving him a disheveled mess once again.