A Tale of a Girl

The Suicide Note

Dear Mom and Dad,

I am so sorry for my decision. I had never thought that things will end like this. but I couldn't take it anymore. I am sorry. please do forgive me.

I am sorry that I couldn't fullfil your dreams. sorry to disappoint you this many times. Sorry that today you got humiliated because of me. My results were not as expected, this time my grades were too bad comparing my past grades I know. But I did my best I swear. I don't know how it came like this.
You two always wanted a bright future for me, a reliable life for me. You wanted me to join the corporate world. But I was always in my own fantasy world. I wanted to work in the film industry. I used to like dancing. Thinking that Dance practice may hamper my grades so you didn't let me go to my programs, not even in the audition last week. And for me, dance is like my life. I worshiped Dance.

I have no friends, I never had. My classmates don't like to hangout with me cause you didn't want me to waste my time hanging out with friends.

Dad do you know I like burger more than pizza. I don't like chocolate cakes, my favorite color is blue, I hate pink. I like to play cricket. I don't want to practice badminton in your badminton club. I have never went to any amusement park when all of my classmates did. I am not complaining dad. I just wanted you to know me better. I don't like those white Orchids you bought me on every birthday... I always wanted to tell you that I like red roses more. But I never had that courage to tell these things face to face.

I know you love me the most in this world. No one can love me more. But dad, did you ever tried to think from my perspective? You didn't.

I am sorry that I took this coward decision. I don't have that courage to face you.

Amber, this is for you.
You little brat, don't you dare touch my things just because am not around. But you can keep my favorite glitter pens and my drawing book and those colors dad brought from Paris tour. Well keep those decorating ribbons and whatever you want. But you have to take good care of those and you can never lose any of them.

Dad please take care of yourself and  mom and Amber. Don't be sad for me. I will be fine. My room is the only thing I liked about my life. Don't redecorate it. There is a hidden gold fish in my room, please take care of it.

I have managed to collect 30 piece of sleeping pills. So I won't be able to wake up tomorrow morning. But I will always be watching you from a far in the sky. Mom once said that granny became a star after death. So after I also become one at first I will find her and then we will have so much fun. I miss granny so much.

Good bye mom, dad.
take love Amber.

Your's
Alena.......