Self-Discovery

Chapter 6

Minjun couldn't find the energy to go to work and have to face Taecyeon. He took a leave of absence thinking that some time off would be good for him, but he ended up in a downward spiral of depression. He felt like he had ruined two friendships in one night. He cried a lot; hating himself and wondering why he bothered to be honest with both men. He felt like he should have just continued to live with his secrets and in his own personal pain, because at least he would have his friends. He was surprised by how much he thought of Taecyeon. Previously, the night that Khun took his virginity was a reoccurring thought in Minjun's mind. Now he thought of Taec and the night they made love and how kind Taec had been towards him. He longed for Taec to be there with him, but when he tried to call or text he just put the phone down. He knew that Nichkhun was really upset and he knew that Taec would need some time too. He was right Taec needed time as he dealt with his emotions, but by the end of the weekend Taec was ready to forgive Minjun having hung to their last kiss. He kept visualizing Minjun and how sincere he seemed when he called Taec back for the kiss in front of Nichkhun. Taec thought that Minjun must have been ready to let go of his feelings for Nichkhun. Back to work on Monday Taecyeon found himself standing at Minjun's desk waiting for him with an underlying feeling that Minjun wasn't going to show up. He was optimistic hoping that Minjun had just gone to the bathroom when someone walked over and put a folder on Minjun's desk.

"Hey, has Minjun come in today?" Taec asked the other person, thinking he may have missed Minjun.

"He called out today." The person responded.

Taec returned to his desk. He didn't know what happened between Minjun and Nichkhun and part of him didn't want to know, but by the third day that Minjun didn't come in to work Taecyeon was worried and finally called Minjun. Of course Minjun didn't answer. Paralyzed by fear, and a broken heart Minjun watched the phone ring. Taec texted, but still no response. Taec's mind was racing. So many "what ifs" were taking over his thoughts, like: "What if Nichkhun hurt Minjun again" or "what if they ran away together" or "what if Minjun was sick?" He had to find out and put an end to his worrisome thoughts. After work he went to Minjun's place. He rang the doorbell. No answer. He rang again. Still no answer. He knocked.

"YA MINJUN!" He yelled. He started banging on the door. He was about to break the door down when it suddenly opened. Taecyeon almost fell into the wet body of Minjun standing in front of him.

"Taec, Minjun exclaimed, I was in the shower." Minjun had a towel draped around his waist, and was using another towel to dry his hair. It was an arousing sight for Taec who immediately wrapped one arm around Minjun pulling him close and kissing him. The kiss made Minjun's heart beat double as he was slow to open his eyes to a frowning Taec who release him and and began to shout.

"You didn't come to work, you didn't call, or answer my phone calls, Taec yelled, I've been worried-" Minjun kissed Taecyeon so he would stop yelling. Minjun tried to pulled away from the kiss.

"I have you now, I'm not stoping." Taec murmured. Minjun accepted it as he had longed for Taec to be with him. The two soon found themselves in Minjun's bed wrapped in each other's arms, softly kissing each other after they had both climaxed.

"I'm sorry Taec, Minjun said softly, you were right I should have called or texted."

"I think its safe to say, I've forgiven you, Taec said as he kissed Minjun's forehead and squeezed him tightly, but if you do it again your dead." He tried to be serious, but Minjun just snickered.

"Im glad you're here." Minjun said as he nuzzled into Taec's neck. Taec caressed the back of Minjun's head as he kissed his forehead and said: "I'm glad to be with you." They lie there quietly for a moment just enjoying the company of each other then Taec asked: "So what happened with Nichkhun?" Minjun was quiet for a moment, hating that Taec decided to ask while they were in such a loving moment, but he didn't get mad and said: "I said some things, he said somethings, I told him I was done, he got angry and left, well I told him to get out." Taec turned a little to look at Minjun. Caressing Minjun's face Taec said: "I'm sorry."

"Don't be, Minjun started, I needed to let go; I realized, Minjun paused lifted himself and looked into Taec's eyes, that I really like you, I couldn't stop thinking about you." Minjun kiss Taec passionately. Taec kiss him back.

"Ready for round 2?" Taec asked Minjun who accepted the invitation and started kissing all over Taec's body. Even with Minjun's kisses and tongue electrifying his body, Taec couldn't help but to think that even though Minjun seemed to be able to let Nichkhun go, had Nichkhun let go of Minjun?