CHAPTER 1
I walked in Tony's house and his 5 year old brother came and hugged me. I hug him back when I see Tony I get up and we hug and and he kissed me. We walked down the hall to his room.He opens the door and walks me in. We both sit on his bed and he leans in and kisses me I kiss back till his 5 year old sister walked in she giggled and ran to us and jumped on the bed. Tony told her to leave and she did what she was told. About 5 minutes later his mom walked in and told us to watch everyone. We walked into the living room when I feel a hand on my butt.I turn around to see Zach, Tony's 13 year old brother wih his hand on my butt. Tony then turned and saw what Zach was doing and Tony slapped his hand. Tony told him only he could do that I roll my eyes and then Tony puts his hand on my butt and I smile. He pulls me in and kisses me I pull away and he gives me a confused look. I point to all his siblings and he says oh. I ask him if Zach could watch the younger ones. He tells me to go ask so I walk to Zachs room and ask him if he could watch his siblings. He smiles and said he would if I kiss him at first I said no but I really wanted alone time with Tony so I could tell him I self harm. I nod and say okay he pulls me in and kisses me I kiss back after about 5 minutes I pull away. Zach walks to the living room and I walk to Tonys room. When I get in there he is sitting on his bad. I walk over to him and he pulls me down on his lap. He asked me what he made me do. I look down and whisper I had to kiss him. Tony stares at me and asked who was a better kisser. I told him I didnt know, I pulled him in and kissed him. I pull back and say you are a way better kisser he smiles. We keep kissing he lays me down and he startes to take my long sleeve shirt off when I stop him. I look at the ground and feel him put his hands on my nack and pull my face up to look at him. He asked me why I wouldnt have sex with him. I didnt awnser and then he asked again and I tell him he is going to laugh. He promises he wont I look at him and I tell him Im a virgin. He looks at me and tells me thats nothing to be ashame about. I look at him and smile he kisses me again, we stay there making out for about 20 minutes. He lays down on his bed and pats the other side telling me to lay beside him. I lay next to him and he kisses me again. He asked me if I wanted one of his shirts I smile and say yes. He walks to his dresserand he gets me one of his shirts. He hands it to me and I pulled my shirt off and Tony turns and stared I pull his shirt over my head. I crawl in next to him and we started kissing and it turned to a full on make out session. After making out we layed there in scilence, good scilence. Till I see him looking at my wrist I saw what he was looking at and covered my writs up. He pulled the blanket down and grabed my wrist. He sees all the cuts and starts asking me questions, questions I couldn't answer. He told me I could trust him and I told him I knew that. Then he told me to tell him what happened. Just the. I started crying, he try's to touch me but I pull away and run to the bathroom. I lock myself in there and cry. I hear a knock on the door, followed by Tony's voice. He told me to open the door and if I don't he was going to break it down. I got up and unlocked the door he picked me up and I didn't try to break free. He sits me on the bed right then I break down telling him everything. He lays me down on the bed and checks my wrist, my arms, my legs, and my stomach for anymore cuts. He pulls out a sharpie and writes love on my wrist. I smile at him and sit up, I pulled him in and kissed him. We sat there and talked till I had to go. It was Sunday night and Tony texted me making sure I was okay. I always reply I was it made me smile knowing how much he loved me.
