"I Don't Know How To Feel"

I Want To Feel Again

'Stupid Jake, if he wasn't such an idiot maybe he be cut- what in the hell am I thinking? Jake is fucking stupid and not cute' Enoch starts to blush thinking about Jake "fucking dumbass" he mumbles under his breath but his thoughts was cut off by a knock on the door "It's open" he said as he began to mess with the hearts and doll and animal pieces he had laying around

"H-hey Enoch"

"what do you want"

"I Just wanted to see what you were doing"

"well you've seen what I'm doing, so you can leave now"

'Idon'twanthimtogoIdon'twanthimtogoIdon'twanthimtogoIdon'twanthimtogoIdon'twanthimtogo-'

"oh ok, bye"

he was almost out of the room but

"wait you know what, what the hell you can stay keep me company or whatever, Olive would probably like that"

he just nods, grabs a chair and sits down next to Enoch

"Why would she like that?"

"Eh, she wants us to get along, sense you're so found of Emma"

"I-I I'm not- I-I don't I"

"God you sound just like Abe, it must be genetic, god" Enoch said laughing a little at the familiarity of the moment

"I- really?"

"Yeah he'd get all flustered and fumble over his words when he talked about her"

"Wair I thought you didn't like him? Were you friends?"

"I wouldn't say we were friends, Oilve was and still is my friend and Emma was and maybe still is her friend and Abe and Emma were, well I don't what but it was romantic I think? and I don't like what he did, I don't like that he left"

"Not trying to rude um but is Oilve you're only friend? 'cause that how it sounded"

"I mean yeah I guess, my only other friend is laying lifeless on that bed at the end of that hall with his eyes ripped out of his fuckin' 'ed"

"Oh..."

"Yep"

"I'm sorry"

"What?"

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to bring up something that hurt you"

"Huh" Enoch says with a watery laugh "you're the first person, other then Miss Peregrine, to apologize for that"

"Really?"

"Oilve never talks about him and I don't really talk to anyone else who isn't like a 7 year old, I mean Emma sometimes brings him up but that's more to make me feel bad than anything else"

"Wha-what? Why would she do that?"

"Because the hollow was-" he takes a deep breath "it was coming for me and Victor saw it's shadow and jumped in the way"

"What the hell"

"Yeah I know it shouldn've been m-"

"No, no, no that was directed towards Emma not you, sorry"

"What? Don't you like her?"

"Not as much anymore"

"If it make you feel any better she stop a while ago, I screamed at her about how guilty I felt about it without her comments and she stopped"

"She shouldn't have been doing it anyway but that's better then nothing I guess"

'maybe he's not as bad as I thought, he made me feel something like Victor did or at least he makes me want to feel something like that again...'

...

'I like him

No

Why would I like him

I don't like him

I do not like him'

"Hey Jake?"

"Yeah?"

"I think I have another friend" Enoch said with a little smile

"I think I do too" Jake said back smiling widely

'Maybe I like him a bit'

They smile with each other for a moment

"Okay, that's enough of that, get the hell out my room"

"Okay" Jake said with a small laugh