•TIRED.
Tired of trying
Tired of hoping
Tired of coping
Tired of existing
Tired of breathing
Tired of living
I'M DONE•
That's how I'm feeling at this moment. Why does life have to be so confusing and so Hard. My mom always use to say 'life is beautiful'. But is it really? If you were in my spot I highly doubt you would say the same thing. If you had my demons you wouldn't even be here. I'm weak. But strong enough to stay alive. For now. I wish people would at least ask me if I'm okay. My parents use to love me, but I don't think they after the incident. Shivers went through my body just thinking about it. They ignore me. They don't even feed me. I don't want to eat anyways, but I wish they would at least ask. I lay in bed everyday wishing the scars all over my wrist would disappear. I wish I could disappear. I can't sadly. Only one person would miss me. I have a friend. Only one. But I wouldn't leave him. I promised him I wouldn't kill myself. But promises are made to be broken. His name is Niall. Niall horan. He is absolutely beautiful. If he didn't hang out with me he would defiantly be popular. I don't know why he talks to me. I still remember the first day he came to my school...
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I was walking in school like normal keeping my head down the whole time when somebody tapped my shoulder. I flinched and looked up to see a cute blonde smiling at me showing his beautiful white straight teeth.
"Hi, I'm new here and I was wondering if a beautiful girl like you would show me my where this class is" he said pointing towards his timetable. I blushed and nodded. Somebody called me beautiful. He was lying I bet. I'm no where near attractive.
I looked at the class he was pointing to was English.
"Just go down B hallway and turn left and you should see it" I said quietly. He nodded and I was about to walk away but he grabbed my arm.
"Can you walk me there?" He asked.
"You want me to walk you there?" I ask surprised.
"Yeah, what if I get lost?" He questioned.
"Get lost?" I raised my eyebrows. "But okay, sure"
He smiled and I gave him a small one back before showing him to his class. He tried making conversation but failed miserably because I wasn't talking anymore. That's the most I've talked to someone in a day. After showing him he pulled me into a hug. It surprised me. Nobody ever touched me because they think I'm a psycho. I hugged back and smiled. A real smile. We pulled away and he mumbled a see you later before walking in class. I walked to my class a little to happy. When lunch came he sat with me. Which surprised me.
"I told you I will see you later" he replied noticing my confused face.
"I thought you would have left me for a friend" I said.
"I did leave someone for a friend."
"You are my friend right..." Oh he didn't know my name.
"Madison" I finished.
"Madison. Beautiful name." He told me.I smiled.
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Since that day he hasn't left my side. He sticks up for me. He told me he knew I cut from the first time he saw me. He said the most beautiful girls always cut or have problems. Niall is an incredible friend. He is very cheesy and romantic which makes him even better. He is the person keeping me from leaving. He is my savior and I tell him that everyday.
