Keeping Log of My Depressive Episodes. (You don't have to read this)

Day 1

4/12/20. 

Could barely get out of bed. Was forced out cause it's Easter.

God I hate this already.

Ate 2 whole snacks. Maybe 3. One bottle of water. Over 12 hours of sleep.

Took a real hot bath and scrubbed myself clean- my mom made me because "You stink! Go get a bath".......

..................can't she see that I'm dying on the inside over here?

I'm not suicidal. I want a new life- a one where I'm happy again. It feels like everyday I'm living is just that- another day. Same thing every. Single. Day.

I can't even remember half the shit I do anymore. I can't tell you what I ate for dinner yesterday- or if I even had any.

I hate this.

I wanna be happy again.

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