Collection of Unspoken Emotions

Thoughts

I took my phone and looked at my screen

8:50 pm

and then I placed it again where I took it.

I looked at the ceiling of my room and then suddenly I felt tears streaming down to my cheeks. Wait.. What?

I then wiped my tears away and hugged myself "What is happening to me?" I started thinking of any reasons why I cried to convince myself that I am okay but I found nothing but a blank answer from my mind.

I then realized that I am looking at my room's ceiling feeling nothing

"But why did you cry?" My conscience asked me

Why did I cry? What's the reason of these deep sighs, deep thoughts and numb feeling?

"I don't know..." I whispered

I took a deep breath and get up from my bed and went to our kitchen to make some hot drink that has it's bittersweet aftertaste, then head back to my room and looked at the window

As I sip from this wonderful drink and seeing how peaceful the night sky is...

I can't help thinking about what if I chose what's best for me?

Maybe I will find my happiness and will be able to remove this burden that I have been carrying for a long time.

Why am I being sad anyway? Why can't I be happy like I was before? Maybe it's my fault that I left myself burned out and here what it brought me.

Meteor...

The warm blue and peaceful atmosphere of the night sky, the wonderful smell of this hot drink beside me made me realize that maybe it's time for me to let myself be peaceful and choose myself this time, I have been helping and working for others but I did not have a chance to help and work myself to grow.

This time, I'll let myself grow to it's natural beauty again but unlike before... I believe when I'll be back, I'll bloom differently than before.