"Hey you still up for that coffee?"
I was brought out of my thoughts as Ethan sat next to me in the desk. I had so much going on I totally forgot about coffee.
"Duh" I sarcastically said knowing I had totally forgot. I really wanted to cancel so i could go and talk to Grayson. I still wasnt over our fight.
"Wanna blow off the rest of the day and get that coffee now?" He says giving me a smirk.
I looked at him confused at first until I realized he was serious. I have to much on my mind to stay at school all day anyways so why not.
"I'm so down" I said as I grabbed my things and we walked out.
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The car ride was kind of quiet and awkward. We didnt hang out much with out gray with us.
"So how are your parents?"
I knew I probably shouldn't have asked that but I was dieing of conversation.
"They're doing okay, we just take it day by day" he says as we pull up to the small diner in our town.
I just nodded as we got out and walked in sitting down at an empty table.
Its usually not this wierd being around Ethan or talking to him but its like i have a big secret I want to tell him but I can't so it makes it harder to talk to him.
"Did I do something?" He says as he looks up softly at me. He was literally the nicest human I new. So kind and soft spoken and I hate having to lie to him.
"Of course not why do you think that?"
He just looked down fiddling with his fingers before looking back up at me. He looked really sad.
"I just have this feeling telling me you don't really wanna be around me, maybe I remind you to much of him" his voice was so low and soft I could cry. You could tell its been really bothering him.
I stood up walking over to his side of the booth as I sat next to him grabbing his hand in mine.
"Ethan I love being around you, and yes you remind me of him, but you remind me of the good times with him which makes me want you in my life not the other way around, dont you ever think that"
My heart literally broke that he has been struggling with that thought. Before the accident we really wasnt that close but now hes the closest person to me. Except for gray.
"You tell me if it ever gets to much for you and I'll leave" he says as he gripped my hand tighter.
"You will never hear me ask you to do anything but stay here with me, your my bestfriend ethan"
A soft smile formed on his lips before our hands seperated. It makes me sick to my stomach to see him like this.
I dont know how much I can keep holding this in from him.
