The only one- A RoNakshi OS

The only one

Ajit stared at his brother who was aimlessly looking into the blank space.
Four days since sonakshi went missing and he looked devastated. Devastated is not the word. Something more and worse would do. His brother didn't look like the Surgeon Rohit sippy. It was all gone and he looked completely and brutally shattered.
It had just been a week or a bit more since his brother decided to move on from the troubling past and accepting the fact that he is in love with sonakshi rastogi, his would be bhabhi. They silently ended their pretentious girlfriend boyfriend drama amongst themselves and ajit alone knew it.that week was the only time ajit saw his brother being endlessly happy and carefree.his unpredictable moods were long gone and he was so much in love with bhabhi, evidently.
He had caught them holding hands in corners of sukhmani sippy hospital, rohit dragging sonakshi into his cabin and not to mention some intimate kisses in at sippy mansion which were interrupted all thanks to YK , him and akaash chachu barging rohit's room without prior notice out of habit. Aur toh aur he had seen rohit carrying sonakshi in his arms and twirling her around, while she was pleading him to put her down. They were so happy. What on earth made sonakshi do that. Why.
"Bhai say something nah, if you are not going to tell what happened how are we going to find her."
"Ajit...wo...i think i can't breathe..." rohit mumbled.
"What..." he panicked seeing rohit breathless and he propped him up and held him from his shoulder.
"Bhai,its fine. Calm down. Its a panic attack. I am here nah. Sonakshi ko doond nikhalenge hum. You calm down first..."
"Pata hein tu....tume ajit. I shouldn't have done this to sonakshi. I mean i rushed into it."
"What do you mean you rush into it? Rush into what. Rush into telling her that you love her? Oh come on now...."
"No ajit. I r...rushed into.. sayin...g that i don't love her."
"What? When did that happen?"
"Chaar din pehele tha.We were...out for a routine visit at some hospital sonakshi went for some charity work....and tujhe....p...pata hein wahaan kis ko mili...a..ajit raima laut ke aayi hein. Wahaan raima mili h...hume...."
"Raima.? Ok mili toh sahi... lekin sonakshi?"
"Raima mujhe aur sonakshi ek saat dekh dekh ke behosh hogayi ajit. I felt like i again caused her all that pain like i did four years back... i ran to her. I mean i couldn't bear to see my patient sinking back to the same condition because of me..."
"Toh? Patient hein tumari. Eise sochna jais hein. Tum toh kaafi patients ke saat wo mishoos kiya hoga na bhai..."
"Kiya ta ajit. Kiya ta.lekin uss wakt mujhe sab kuch bhool gaya. Jab raima ko hosh aaya usne mujhe poocha....wo"
"Oh gosh bhai what did she ask? What did you tell!!!!"
flashback
"Rohit...tum... meri intezaar nahi kiya kya? Tumne toh mujhe bataadiya...waada kiya ki tum meri permission ki bina kuch bhi nahi k...karenga...move on nahi k..karenga?" Raima whispered. As tears flew down her cheeks.
Rohit felt helpless. He forgot that. As in its been so long that he forgot that life they both shared. He was so used to having sonakshi around that he forgot it all. But if he blurt out everything now to an already not yet fir enough raima, things could go wrong.
"No no.. raima there is nothing like that. wo sonakshi is my best friend... nothing else. Please do not panic now. Mein kabhi tumse alag nahi hua hein raima. Hamesha tumari yaadein judi hui thi mujhse. Kuch nahi badla bas tum teek ho jao pehele... please."
"So...sonakshi bohot sundar hein... tum dono ek saat bo...hot achcha lag rahi thi... lekin... mein tume kissi aur ko nahi... de..sakti... rohit. Mein..."
"Raima please. Calm down. Let's discuss it all later now don't panic."
"Batao mujhe rohit. Batao mujhe ki tum abhi bhi srif... mujhse pyaar karata hein..."
"Raima..."
"Batao...."
"Haa...chalo teek hein. Karta hoon mein tumse pyaar.pehele ki tarah. Aaj bhi karta hoon. Lekin Sonakshi mere...kehr chod lo. Tumse pyaar karta hoon mein raima. Kuch nahi badla..."
He started caressing her forehead, calming her down and letting her easy to drift off to sleep.
He felt something behind him and looked back to see sonakshi staring at him in disbelief. She looked broken, broken and more like shattered beyond repair. He was stuck at grounds and he got up from the seat and moved to her trying to talk but she just left from there.
He ran behind her.
"sonakshi. Sonakshi suno meri baat."
"Kya kehene waala tha rohit? Lekin sonakshi mere...kya hein mein tumara rohit? Kya hein mein tumara? Kyun nahi poora kiya jo tumne kehene waala tha... batao ab. An to raima hein hi nahi yahaan. Mujhe kaho rohit. Iss poore hafte toh mein kya samj kar reheti ti aap ke saat...haa?"
"Sonakshi dekho. Its very complicated. Iss wakt mujhe ye chance na, bohot mushkil se mila. Raima ke saat koi risk le nahi sakta mein. Usko koi sadma nahi pocha sakta mein. Filaal ye baat mujhe nahi kehe sakte ki tum aur mein i mean you know wo sab nahi kehe sakta. Usse bhardaash nahi honga. I can't let my patient be at risk."
"Nahi rohit. Baat srif wo nahi ho sakta. Tumari bhadaaf bhi badal gaya hein. Bataao rohit. Baat kya hein. Ek hafte pehele jab mein tumse breakup karne jaa rahi thi uss fake girlfriend ke chakkar se lekin tumne mujhe rokha. Kehediya ki tum mujhse pyaar karne lagaa hoon. Were you just trying to move on? With Not having clearcut about your past? What were you doing with me."
Rohit felt so messed up right now. He wanted to get rid of this mess quickly. But he had nothing to say, he felt as if he is at a loss of words.
"Meri galti ti. Tumse poochna na chahiye taa whether you really got over raima. I didn't ask that. I should have asked what will happen if she comes back. Jo abhi teek wahi hua hein. Lekin mujhe poochna hi bhoolgaya. Ab kya kare hum rohit? Kahaan aakar kade hogaya hum dono. Nahi actually issme hum teeno hein ab. Kya ...kya honga...."
"Bas sonakshi. Bas bohot hua hein. Mein already bohot parishaan hoon aur parishaan mat karo mujhe."
"Rohit?" She stared at him in disbelief.
"Tum jo kar sakta hoon tume teek lage sonakshi. Agar cha ho tum jaa sakta hoon mujhse dhoor. Mujhe iss wakt mera problem solve karna hein. Please. Agar tum baat nahi samjti ho toh tum bas wo karo jeise tum achcha lagta hein."
"Rohit... mein....tumari matlab hein ki tume koi farak nahi padenga mere... hone naa hone se..tum...pyaar nahi kar...raha hein mujhe....rohit?"
"Sonakshi. Baat samaj mein nahi aaya kya tume?"
"Nahi hota farak? Tum nahi karta hoon mujhe pyaar?mujhe jawaab chahiye... rohit..."
"Yahaan se chali jaao sonakshi. Please. Kahin mein kuch ulta seeda kar nahi bete yahaan..."
"Rohit pyaar nahi karte hoon tum mujhe?"
"Haa haa haa nahi karta hoon pyaar. Nahi karta hoon sonakshi mein nahi karta hoon.ab kush?"
Sonakshi stared at him. She couldn't just register what happened. In a while her whole world crashed down.
She turned back and started walking away. She couldn't believe what she was going to do without him. They had so much together and how she wished this very moment to be a dream.
Rohit stared at her walking away. That very moment only he realised what the heck he just did. This was his life that was walking away from him. He said something which he never meant to say to her.
Somehow he could not stop her. He wanted to go grab her back to him. But he could not. His mind was so messed but he promised one thing to himself, he was so going to talk to her as soon as he fix this.
Within the few hours he had to conduct raima's surgery and it was a success. His heart felt hollow and he felt numb whenever he thought about the last memory with sonakshi but he tried to stay strong and focused thinking it is a little while more to get everything cleared.He needed some few hours till raima stabilized post op and then check her condition and he wanted to talk to her properly.so he went to see her,to conclude it all.
"Rohit....thank you. Mujhe pata ta tum mujhe kabhi kuch hone nahi dunga. Aakhir tumare jaan hein mein mujhe pata hein." Raima said.
He gave a smile and she saw it didn't reach his eyes. There itself raima knew there is some change.
"Rohit kyun tum itna udaas kyun lag rahe hoon? Tum kush nahi hoon mujhe waapas paakar? "
"Kush hoon mein bohot, tume zingda dekkar bohot kush hoon raima."
"Lekin mujhe pakar kush nahi hoon?"
He looked at her trying to register what she said. He was lost in sonakshi's thoughts yet.
"Pata nahi raima. I'll be honest. I have achieved everything by reversing the mistake i did in the surgery i did on you and now i know that i saved you. Lekin...i need to share this happiness. But she... is not there to see this.... not here to share my happiness....uske bagera keise kush rahoo mein...." he mumbled the last part unconsciously.
"Rohit... who is she? Sonakshi you mean?"
He nodded as tears filled his eyes.
"Tum dono... ka rishta kya hein rohit? Pyaar mujhe karta hein tum. Eise hi tumne kahata kal..."
"Mein tumse pyaar karta tha raima. tha." He said looking at her. She was shocked for a while.
"But...i do not love you anymore. I cannot do that raima. I cannot fool you anymore. I cannot fool myself anymore.I am sorry that i didn't think of getting a permission or whatever from you but yeah. I don't want to hide this from you. Do not have hopes and i am very sorry raima... i cannot love you anymore...mein kissi aur ki bangaya hoon ab.haa mein uski saat tha tumari hosh aane se pehele bhi lekin asleemein ab ehesaas hua mujhe, ki mein usse kitna pyaar karta hoon...kal jab wo mujhse chod kar jaate wakt mujhe samj mein aaya ki wo mera kyaa hein..pyaar toh mein uss ladki se karrahoon... itna kar raha hoon ki mein uske bina jee nahi paunga..."
Raima stared at his face. It had so many emotions.
"I really love sonakshi. I really really really love her,raima...." he said with a deep sigh.
"I cannot love you like i love her.I cannot love anyone like i love her. Uske saat har kuch alag hein. Mein jo bhi karenga naa, uske liye karunga. Srif aur srif uske liye.aur....."
"Bas bas bas now rohit....baki sab tume mujhe nahi, jaakar usse kehena hein. So stop right now and go get her." Raima exclaimed.
Rohit looked at her apologetically.
"Rohit meri bachpanaapan ko maaf kardo. Ab tum kissi aur ki hein aur mujhe koi aur ki pyaar ko sabardasti se rak nahi sakta.so yeah its ok. Now now i must say you two look great together haa.mujhe nahi pata ta ki tumari choice itna bhi achcha ho sakta..." she smiled and winked.
"Raima, jo bhi hopaayega tumari haalat lekar, wo sab mein karunga. Koi emergency ho ta Mujhe ek call kardo mein aajaunga treatment ke liye ok. "
"Sure. Go now rohit. Aur dher mat karo." Raima gave him a high five.
Rohit got up from there and rushed to leave from there. This is the moment he has been waiting for. A proper moment, that sonakshi deserved. That they both deserved together.
He dialled sonakshi but her phone was kept off. For a while he felt a sudden fear. He tried to find the contact of pulkit and that is when he noticed that he has got so many missed calls from pulkit himself.
He dialled back to pulkit and within a moment the call got answered.
"Pulkit tu neh call kiya? Sonakshi hein wahaan pe?"
"Issliye toh phone kiya jeeju. Di pataa nahi kahaan hein. Hume laga aapke saat hogi lekin..."
"Pata nahi matlab? Kabse pata nahi.pulkit bata mujhe kabse pata nahi..."
"Kal raat se...."
Flashback over
Ajit couldn't believe what has happened. He stared at his brother who was squeezing his eyes to stop the tears. He has never seen rohit in such a state.
Four days and they have been continously checking for sonakshi now. Yet they have found no clue. Ajit feared what will happen next. This shouldn't be happening, something should be done.
"Jab tume sab kuch hein naa paas ajit, tab uska keemti nahi mishoos hota.kone se hi keemti samaj aata hein...mein keise rahoonga sonakshi ki bina ajit...wo jaan hi meri...raima ke bina chaar saal guzaara lekin zingda tha. Par sonakshi ki bina mujhe eisa nahi rehe sakta.eisa lag rahaa hein ki mera dum gutrahaahein...." Rohit whispered weakly.
"Bhai?" Ajit stepped to the front to console him but a call coming to his phone stopped him.he quickly answered it.
"What?" Ajit's exclaimation startled rohit. He felt his heart stopping for a moment.
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"Chaar din di. Chaar din. Koi eisa kese kar sakta hein. Aapko thoda sa bhi fikar nahi hein hamari? Idar hamari jaan jaa rahi thi aapki chinta mein aur aap....aaj bhi agar nethra ji neh nahi doonda aapko,toh pata nahi kya hojaata..."
Pulkit said, opening the door to their apartment. They found sonakshi after so much of effort when she was staying away from everything at her friend neha's place.
"Pulkit please...mujhe thodi dher akhele rehena hein..."
"Pari toh hein nahi ghar pe. Muniya aur mumma neh nethra ji ki saat hein ab tak aapke kaaran. mujhe bhi jaana hein filaal Ajit aur pooja se milkar thanks kehene mein. Aapko pata nahi wo sab kitna pareshaan tha. Please di, aayinda eisa mat karo. Jo bhi problems hein uska saamna karna bhaag ne se zyaada achcha hein. Please...."
"Tu jha pulkit." Sonakshi closed the main door and came to her room. She wished she could stay in hiding as she was for the past few days. She had lost everything post what rohit said to her. Her heart was trampled and crushed and it seemed like nothing remained. Didn't she actually deserve any love in this lifetime? Pyaar nahi karna ta toh kyun apne aapse juda tha tum mujhe, rohit?
She opened the door to her room silently and locked it behind. She was devastated and nothing really mattered to her. She aimlessly walked to the bed and sat on that. Digging her head among her hands she wondered what kind of destiny she had.It was heavily raining outside and in a moment electricity too got disconnected.Her room was dipped in darkness and she really didn't care.
Suddenly she saw the emergency lamp being lit. The one she lit months ago when Rohit came here after saving her from karan and she remembered how he laughed calling it a disco and what not. His rants about goregaon and boasts about malabar hills. His charming smile while aiming it to her face. Their equation was totally different back then but yet it was soothing to remember all that. At least those memories were better than what she finally had with him.
"Srif yaad karunga mujhe? Baat nahi karungi?" She heard a whisper right next to her ear, his voice it was and she was startled whether she was dreaming or its the reality.
She got up from the bed and moved towards the little dim light with a beating heart. She was right, followed her to the same wall she was leaning on was rohit sippy, the cause of her pain and peace both. Yet she couldn't help but let her heart beat faster feeling his proximity like this. He was hers, not mine. She tried to remind her self but her mind failed her.
She felt his sharp gaze on her. And she tried to avoid it.
"Chaar din se kahaa thi ye nahi poochunga.usse zyaada kuch kehena chati hoon mein tumse, sonakshi." He uttered.
"Mujhe jo sunni he wo toh kaafi tha rohit. Ab aur kuch."
"tumse ijaazat nahi mang raha hoon. Mein toh bata raha hoon. Baat karna hein mujhe tumse. Simple. So baat karna hein." He confirmed with a stubborness. And that ziddi shut sonakshi up.
"tume jaanna chathi thi naa. Aakhir meri man mein hein kya. Toh aaj se zyaada achcha din nahi hein. Ek proper closure ki sarrorat hein. Mujhe bhi. Aur tume bhi." Said rohit looking into her eyes.his eyes had some ajeeb si pain she noticed.
"Ek wakt ta...akhela beta mein neh. Bohot kadwaahat aayi meri behaviour ki. Naa koi dost. . Naa koi aur. Aur phir... " his face changed from the sorrow he had to light up eyes. She wondered if he was confessing her about raima. But she had no strength more for that if that is what was about to happen.
"Phir ek din usse mulaakat hui. Wo mujhse bohot alag thi. Sameen aasman ki farak ta hum dono ki peech...mein usse itna taunt kar raha ta ki koi kabhi nahi socha tha ki hum dono ki peech kavhi kuch teek honge. Lekin wahi hua. Wo mera dost bangayi. Uske saat mein mera dil ki har baat share karne laga.Apne baare mein kahaata. Meri zingdagi har choti bade baat usse kehene laga. Uske bahon mein roya tha. Uske haat pakad ke pakad ke ek ajeeb sa sukhoon mila.meri har emotion bina soche samj sakti ti wo. Jab man kiya uspar chillaya mein neh. Jab man kiya uski khayala raka..uske ek hasi ke liye mein kuch bhi kar sakta ta...aur... meri zingdagi badal gaya. Mein usse pyaar karne laga...." he paused and stared at her teary eyes.
"Aur mein kehebi diya ki mein usse pyaar karta hoon. Pyaar toh usse bohot pehele se kar kar aaya tha mein neh shaayad lekin Overnight realization tha....aur then i needed to have her... for me.....so i told her. That i...love...her..." he pressed on that each word of the last sentence.
"Pyaar toh ta.lekin uss pyaar kitna ta wo toh mujhe tab pata chalgaya jab mein usse apne aapase dhoor jaana dekha. Tab ehesaas hua ki how much I take her for granted....how much I have missed to notice,how much I have loved,but exactly didn't prove it in words to her." Sonakshi was shaken by his words,and she felt hot tears streaking their way down the cheeks.
His hands held her shoulders and looked into her eyes.
"Aaj wo sab kuch kehene ke liye aaya hoon.apne aapko kho kar usse paane aaya hoon...." he said.
"Rohi...." she heard her telling,but he kept his finger on her lips and mumed her.
"Shhh....." was his command.
Then he went ahead and placed his lips on her left eye.
"Ye....pooja ke haatse ke wakth tume blame karnekeliye...l am sorry sonakshi....I am sorry...." he whispered. Sonakshi held his arms tightly for support.
"Ye...tumare kaam ke yaa family ke barein mein hamesha kuch na kuch kehene ke liye....anjaane mein tumara ma ko sadma meri wajeise laga tha....I am sorry sonakshi...I really am sorry...." he said keeping his lips on the other next.
"Ye....raima ki birthday bulakar uska blame bhi tumari upar daalne keliye....I am so sorry....." he said kissing her cheek,wiping her tears in the process.
"Ye....chaar din pehele ek bada sa jerk hone ke liye,kya kya nahi kahaan mein neh.kitna dil dukaaya....i am so damn sorry sonakshi...." he kissed her other cheek and brushed his stubble against her,making her go weak.
"Whatever I have done,jaane ya anjaane mein,eisa bohot wakt honga jahaa tum akheli suffer kiya mere wajeise....I am sorry for all that sonakshi...." he cupped her cheeks and kissed his forehead.
She gulped feeling him so closed,this togetherness of them that she missed during last four days,she had it back to her but she feared if all this were a dream or not.
"Please kabhi bhi mujhe chod ke mat jaana.please.mein jee nahi paunga sona...." he begged her.
"Sonakshi..."
He made her look at him.
"Raima ke halaat ko lekar bohot guilty feel kar raha tha.uski halat ki wajeise uss wakt mujhe eisa kehena pada,lekin it meant nothing.mujhe ek mauka mil gaya mera galti sudhaar ke uski operation karne keliye....mein wahi stress mein tha. Aur na jaane mein bohot rudely behave ki, us wakt halaat bura tha....I am sorry...but ab Naa hein koi shak,naa hein koi doubt,naa chahiye mujhe aur sochne ka....I love you and it will always always always be you. I love you....."
He confessed.she was holding her sobs back and her shoulders were shaking while she struggled to hold on to her emotions.
"Sonakshi....let it out please,apne aapko mere wajeise itni takleef mat do...." he said,cannot bear her look.
"kya lagta hein tume....kya lagta hein tume rohit......" She bursted out sobbing, she hit his chest from her hand pushing him back. He was pushed back but controlled.
"Khadoos doctor .pata hein mujhe kya hua tume eise dekar...haan...mujhe bardaash nahi kar paati tume uski saat dekar. Kyun kiya eise kyun kiya rohit?Jaan lena hein kya meri haa." She bursted out.
"So...."
"Kya...kya sonakshi....beech mein mat bolo rohit.bohot kuch kehete hoon tum.itna bade bade. Lekin dekho mere taraf....kya haal hein mera...tume andaaza bhi nahi hein ki mein tumse kitna pyaar kar rahaa hoon.nahi hein tume koi andaaza...."
She cried and cried and cried as he tightly hugged her among her little hits against his chest.
She grabbed his collar and dragged him to her level.
"Tume kisi ki saat baat nahi sakte mein neh.tum mera hi hein rohit,meri amaanat hoon tum.kissiko ko bhi tum mujhse alag nahi kar sakta....abhi nahi.kabi nahi.... "
She screamed at him and he nodded once cupping her cheeks and the next moment she started to kiss him. He was taken aback for a split second and the next moment his hands went beneath her hair and he untangled her hair while kissing.their eyes closed and his hands twirled her to the wall and pinned her hands there, not wanting to stop that any time soon.a swift moan escaped from her as he parted her lips from his and they were exploring each other crazily. Without a warning he carried towards her bed. The next moment they were under the duvet and were almost on the verge of loosing themselves when they hear a tap at the door.
"Sona...."
Suman was trying to open the door which was already locked.
"Wow." Rohit rolled his eyes to earn a glare from sonakshi and she rolled him underneath her and closed his mouth from her palm.
"Chup bilkul chup rohit....."
"Arey wo nahi aa sakta darwasa bandh hein...." he whispered.
"Spare key hein uske paas rohit chup....."
"What!!!!"
The next moment sonakshi saw the door opening and the faint light of the torch hitting her bed, she covered them both with the duvet and hugged into his chest as he kept on chuckling against her palm.
"Mumma...." she pretended to give out a sleepy moan.
"'Sau jaa sona sau jaa..." Suman quickly closed the door and locked it.
Rohit looked at her with naughty eyes.
"Kya smexy sleepy voice hein..."
"Shut up.pata nahi kya hota agar uss be hame istarha dekhkiya toh..."
"Kya hona hein.mein bataunga ki aunty sonakshi mujhse pregnant hogayi aur mein toh bas meri Bachche ki haal chaal poochne aaya hoon..."
"Wow.what an idea sirji..."
"Exactly.chalo sach much babies banayenge...." he said grabbing her to him and spooning to her.
"Rohit..."
"Ek week dunga tume,mummy ko batao hum dono ki baare mein aur let me know...I will come to tell her that I want to marry her daughter..."
"Agar permission nahi mila toh?" She gave a mischeivous smile.
"Such much pregnant hone ki criterias follw karungi...."
"Hawwwww......"
He sent one leg over hers and locked her body to his. She slowly turned to face him and hugged and cuddled to his chest.
Life was good,again.