KamiJiro Oneshot - The Secret I've Hidden

The Secret I've Hidden

Take a look at mari 🔞 (@kinksuki): https://twitter.com/kinksuki?s=09

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mtf jirou who pushes kaminari away because she knows what’s going to happen.

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she’s been through it all before.

he’ll say he likes her, that he loves her even, and then he’ll see her without the skirt, without the padding, and he’ll run away.

they always run away.

or they press into his eyes, and despite the pain, he still ends up near her, just... with a considerable amount of space between them.

“because even if you keep bullying me, i like you!”

idiot.

she’s not bullying him. she’s just protecting them both from disappointment.

there’s already a heavy weight on her shoulders from lying to her family and from hiding from her friends.

she doesn’t need it from a boy who can’t seem to take a hint.

but he stays.

he comes around and hangs out by her desk and gives her his blazer when she forgets hers.

kaminari sits by her instead of mina and kirishima during lunch, tries to impress her with video game knowledge and his social media followers.

when that doesn’t work, he starts listening to the same bands she does and talking about concerts that they could go see together.

he’s trying so hard to get closer, but fear keeps her from opening up to let him in.

but kaminari’s persistent.

she prefers the word stubborn, or hard headed, but he likes to say persistent.

he learns her favorite songs on guitar and wears her favorite colors around the dorms.

when she speaks, he hangs on to every word like it’s the most exciting story he has ever heard, even if it’s about her chipping her nail polish while playing guitar.

and when she breaks, he wraps his arms hard around her before awkwardly pressing his nose into her hair.

“let me in.” he whispered, and she cried into his shirt. “jirou, i-i know you see it. i like you so much. i want to be there for you, but how can i when you... you won’t let me?”

it’s all just pretty words. pretty, stupid words that don’t mean anything.

kaminari likes girls.

and no matter how hard she tries with the makeup and the clothes, she won’t be a girl.

not with the penis between her legs, and not with the flatness of her chest that’s more muscle than anything.