Nina POV
You know I thought breaking up with Ian was the right thing to do. I mean we both wanted different things in life. Ian was fully focused on his foundation wanting to save the world and I loved him for that. He wanted to settle down and have kids which someone of his age would be thinking. I was just 23 at the time I've hardly lived my life. I wanted adventure and to experience the world to see the beauties of all four corners. I just wasn't on the same vibe as Ian which was sad because I did see my future with him. I was in love with him and I did see marriage and kids one day. Just not now.
When we officially broke up I was sad and upset. A lot of people thought I didn't have the right to be because I was the one who rejected his proposal. If I said yes. If I went ahead it would of been a even messer break up because I would of hurt Ian further and that was something I didn't want. So yeah in the media I was portrayed as the big bad. I would rather them think that to hurt the one guy who had truly capture my heart. So how did I deal with the bad press?
Well I went away to Tideland with my friends which was a blast but at the same time I kept missing Ian. So I knew I needed some time alone that I needed time to get my head together before Comic Con where I'll be seeing him again. So I jetted off to Hawaii when I was there I began to get charity that I needed to do something to get my life back on track. It did help a great deal. So when I arrived back in the states I began to live a normal 23 year old life. Partying with friends I even dated Derek Hough which was fun while it lasted but I knew it wasn't going to go anywhere. I wanted to focus on my career and on my friends because that's what any 23 year old would do.
The day came for Comic Con it was the big reveal for season 5 and the fans were excited. It was a little hard to be so close to Ian and all the tension. But we actually had a heart to heart and said that we were friends before lovers and somehow we needed to be like that again. That's what made Ian so lovable that he put his feeling to aside and thought about our personal and professional relationship. So from that moment onwards it was all great. The chemistry between Ian and I on set was still the same we used to laugh and joke. Pretty much cast and crew were amazed by our professionalism. That's what they didn't get Ian and I understood one another on so many levels.
When it's was our 100th episode I threw a party at my home. We had already had a huge get together through the CW but I thought to do a little celebration on the night the episode was aired. It was a great night we drank and of course there was comments on certain scene. Michael you guys may know him as Enzo would do voice over dubs which were funny. Most of them were to do with Elena and Damon which made me and Ian feel a little on edge. There was something different in the air that night between us. I don't know what it was but I think we were looking at one another differently.
That feeling I was having was right. Ian helped me clear up and I couldn't tell you what happened one moment we were throwing bottle in the air. The next we were in each others area making out basically one thing lead to another and we ended up making love. I don't know where it came from but it's was like that fire we once had came bubbling to the surface. I recalled how Ian would send my pulse racing as he would feverishly kiss my body. The way he held me tightly as we made love with that intense steel look in his eyes. The look of love adoration even lust it's was the most intense experience I had ever had with him I didn't want it ever to stop.
Let just say in the morning it was a little awkward with Ian stumbling around trying to find his clothes while he thought I was sleeping. I wasn't going to let him go like that so I started him with a good morning. For the first time in a very long time I saw Ian blush. Ian wasn't a man who got embarrassed easily but there was something about me catching him out that he felt ashamed. I told him it was cool. Like it's was a final hooray to finally sever our connection. Ian looked at me skeptically as he knew this wasn't my kind of behavior which it wasn't. But right now I felt hurt by the way he was going to sneak out on me like he was ashamed of what we did the night before and that cut me real deep. So as I got myself dressed Ian kept asking me was I sure about that. He knew me better than my own family he could clearly see I was hurt. I just wanted him to leave and I think that I may have been a little harsh towards him but I had a right after what he attempted. Like he was ashamed of me or something.
