Your Guardian Angel | Jenlisa

Chapter 4: my

"I will never let you fall, i'll stand up with you forever."

L I S A

I'm in the school garden by myself,
I was sitting on the bench as I gazed into sky.

I decided to go here before I went to the music hall and see them.

I just feel bittersweet.

I was very happy with the memories we had when we performed on the stage, but I also feel bitter and sad.

I slowly closed my eyes with tears streaming down my face.

"jennie-ah, it hurts so much," I mumble while crying.

After we performed on stage, I couldn't help but go home and cry in my room.

I thought when I joined in that club, I would slowly move on and lose my feelings for her.

I was wrong, I was just crushed by what i'm seeing.

Especially when they are together, especially when I see how much they love each other.

It still hurts. It still hurts that she doesn't love me,

Because she loves someone else.

I was doing everything for her, but she still chose him.

It hurts so much.

It hurts so much that i can see how she looks at him,

I can see in her eyes how much she loves him.

Those kinds of looks that i never once saw when she was looking at me.

She loved him.

It hurts that she loves someone that's not me.

I lower my head as I continue to cry, "if we meet in our second life," my voice cracked,

"will you choose me and love me there?" I ask myself.

I believe that there is something for the both of us,

And if she wasn't for me, I would accept it.

Even though it hurts, it's okay. Because I believed it wasn't the right time for the two of us.

If we had a second life, I will surely find her..

hopefully in our second life,

it's the two of us.

And hopefully in our second life,

she'll be mine for the rest of my life.

I opened my eyes and wiped away my tears.

I looked up into the sky and took a deep breath as I smiled sadly,

"Jennie-ah! I promise, right? while I haven't fulfill my other promise, let me love you." I said.

"So as long it wasn't the day i'll say goodbye, let me love you until i lost my feelings for you."

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I was at the front door of our music hall, I slowly opened it and went inside.

When they heard the door open, they look at me worriedly,

I look at them confusedly, did something happen while I was not here?

While i'm walking closer to them, I looked around and looked for jennie-unnie, but I couldn't find her.

I looked at them and i was surprised to see kai with his eyes closed as he brush his hair frustratedly while he's walking back and forth.

I look at them intently as i watch them who's looking worried and nervous.