"I will never let you fall, i'll stand up with you forever."
L I S A
I'm in the school garden by myself,
I was sitting on the bench as I gazed into sky.I decided to go here before I went to the music hall and see them.
I just feel bittersweet.
I was very happy with the memories we had when we performed on the stage, but I also feel bitter and sad.
I slowly closed my eyes with tears streaming down my face.
"jennie-ah, it hurts so much," I mumble while crying.
After we performed on stage, I couldn't help but go home and cry in my room.
I thought when I joined in that club, I would slowly move on and lose my feelings for her.
I was wrong, I was just crushed by what i'm seeing.
Especially when they are together, especially when I see how much they love each other.
It still hurts. It still hurts that she doesn't love me,
Because she loves someone else.
I was doing everything for her, but she still chose him.
It hurts so much.
It hurts so much that i can see how she looks at him,
I can see in her eyes how much she loves him.
Those kinds of looks that i never once saw when she was looking at me.
She loved him.
It hurts that she loves someone that's not me.
I lower my head as I continue to cry, "if we meet in our second life," my voice cracked,
"will you choose me and love me there?" I ask myself.
I believe that there is something for the both of us,
And if she wasn't for me, I would accept it.
Even though it hurts, it's okay. Because I believed it wasn't the right time for the two of us.
If we had a second life, I will surely find her..
hopefully in our second life,
it's the two of us.
And hopefully in our second life,
she'll be mine for the rest of my life.
I opened my eyes and wiped away my tears.
I looked up into the sky and took a deep breath as I smiled sadly,
"Jennie-ah! I promise, right? while I haven't fulfill my other promise, let me love you." I said.
"So as long it wasn't the day i'll say goodbye, let me love you until i lost my feelings for you."
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I was at the front door of our music hall, I slowly opened it and went inside.
When they heard the door open, they look at me worriedly,
I look at them confusedly, did something happen while I was not here?
While i'm walking closer to them, I looked around and looked for jennie-unnie, but I couldn't find her.
I looked at them and i was surprised to see kai with his eyes closed as he brush his hair frustratedly while he's walking back and forth.
I look at them intently as i watch them who's looking worried and nervous.

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Your Guardian Angel | Jenlisa
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