Sensuality

V - 1

I just wanna see him and hold him and yes, sex would be great but I understand that right now that's not going to happen. I am not sure if he lets me touch him but I am confident that I will see him.

But despite all of that I loose my optimistic view on the way to his apartment. Walking doesn't keep my brain busy enough to block out the thoughts. The thoughts of a life without Thomas.

My hands start to feel numb and my worries weigh on me more and more. Just a corner away from his apartment complex I stop. What if I make it worse by visiting him? What if that determines him never coming back to me?

My whole energy system is moving around violently. Then it stops for a second and I hear a door open as clear as if it opened right next to my ear. I look around and see someone coming out of Thomas' apartment complex. One look is enough to see that it is Thomas and Angel.

Thomas doesn't look good. He drags his feet over the ground and his posture is terrible. Angel is clinging to his hand and looks up to her dad the whole time. Now I am concerned. All the dark thoughts are gone and replaced by worries about Thomas.

Before I know it I run toward them. Angel hears my footsteps first and turns. Her worried face lightens up and she runs toward me. Almost without slowing down I pick her up and run to Thomas' side.

"He is feeling bad again", Angel says. I can imagine what is happening and I get a confirmation right away. My hands who were feeling numb before now just release my energy without control. So I put one of my hands on Thomas' cheek and force him to look at me. He isn't in such a bad shape as I found him a week ago, but a few more days and he is going to be unconscious again.

Upon my touch, he immediately starts to absorb my energy on his own. When he notices what is happening, which takes a moment, he looks at me with wide eyes.

In shook, he asks me: "How?"

"I don't know", I answer truthfully. I don't know how he does it. It was a mystery to me a week ago and that hasn't changed.

Suddenly a feel small arms around my neck and a kiss on my cheek. "Thank you, you made him feel better again", Angels says with a beaming smile.

"You're welcome", I say and give her a kiss on the cheek back, which only makes her smile more.

When I turn my head back around I see Thomas more shocked than before and redder than before. I think he just realized his surroundings. I still have my hand on his cheek and he is still absorbing energy from me. We are outside and showing affection to each other. Even if only small affection I guess it is a big deal for Thomas. Angel is watching too.

So the first thing he does when he can move again is moving away from me as if I bit him. Instantly, his body slumps down. My hands are still releasing energy and now without a receiver, it disappears into the ground.

I put Angel down and step up to Thomas. He struggles a bit but I can feel it is not a serious attempt to fight me off. Embraced in a hug, my cheek on his cheek, and one of my hands on his, he starts absorbing again.

"I guess we have to hold hands as long as you need energy", I whisper in his ear. He doesn't answer verbally but he leans against me. His head on my shoulder. We just stand there like this for a moment until Angel tugs at Thomas' jeans. So he looks down and then says:

"I have to get Angel to Kindergarten."

"Okay", I say, step away from him, take his hand in my right and Angels in my left and start walking. Like this, we walk down the street. No one of us says anything. Thomas just squeezes my hand from time to time and I think it is his way of saying thanks. When we arrive at the Kindergarten there are a lot of parents to bring their children. Angel breaks loose and runs to some other children.