Jealousy

Lily

"Hey guys" , I say smiling into the camera. "So today I'm going to do anything far from original. I will be surprising fans on omeagle".. I hear giggiling coming from the sitting room and I know the giggles belong to Lily. Lily is Phil's girlfriend, I dont even need to see them to know that they are curled up on the sofa watching Americas next top model. Phil despises the show he's only watching for Lily. They are probably curled up in a winter fleece blanket, which only a week ago me and Phil were curled up in the same fleece.

"I'm trying to film", I shout over to Phil. "Where trying to watch ANTM ", Phil replies. I sigh loud enough for him to hear and he sighs back making sure it reaches my ears. 

Phil and Lily have only been dating for three days and already its pissed me off. I dont know why I'm jealous. Its not like me and Phil have ever dated or been in relationship, but we've had a couple of moments which makes me think that Phil might have a thing for me because I definately have a thing going on for him!

I  turn the camera off and lie back in my bed staring up at the ceiling. I've stared at this ceiling every night Lily has been here and it still doesnt interest me but I cant take my eyes of the plain white ceiling because I fear I will break down and thats ridiculous I'm 21 and I'm acting like a dumb little kid. God Ive got to get out of here, but where would I go. I grab a hat, my superdry coat. A rucksack containing my wallet, half a bottle of  powerade , and a bag of crisps. 

When i get into the sitting room. Phil and Lily are all over eachother. Lily with her legs straddled around Phil and they are kissing like there lives depend on it.. "Bluddy hell", I mutter under my breath. But they dont even look up. I feel invisible and I walk out the front door, slamming it shut behind me. I dont even know where I'm going I just need to clear my head and get out of that place for a bit.

You see its not that Lily is a bad person she really isnt but it feels like she is taking Phil away from me, with twelve years of not having any friends and being that weird kid , who always get bullied, I'm not going to let Lily take away my first best friend. I just couldnt cope on my own. 

My quick walking turns into a jog and before I know it I'm running as far as I can to get away from my apartment until Lily gets out of my head and slowly London turns from the beautiful sunny day time, to the fierce night and I dont know where I am or what I'm doing all I know is I'm not going back at least not tonight!