Chapter 1

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by Yaaas29
by Yaaas29
                                    
                                              I feel the heaviness in my lungs and the water push on my face. This is it I'm drowning and there's no way out. I feel the rush of water push off my face and my breathing staggers. 
                          "Jane come on you leave for the bus in 10." my grandma pounds the door and I suddenly rush back into reality. I open my eyes and look at the shower head pouring on my face. 
                          I twist the knobs and step out. Maybe I should just skip today, I mean the other person who would notice my disappearance is Robin.
                          I brush back the wet blonde and tie my hair up. I pull on jeans and my black shirt with the black cardigan... I wear too much black man.
                          I pull on the old converse I have and grab my bag. "What no makeup today." my grandma laughs as I walk past her.
                          "No time for that and really no need for that crap." I smirk.
                          "Yet you spend money in that shit." she scoops a spoon of cereal in her mouth and waves me off.
                          I yank my sleeve down and blow some air in front of my face and watch as the pretend smoke swirls past me.
                          It's November so I should've known that eventually I would need something more than this old cardigan.

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                          Maybe if I actually had balls to do shit I would've been in my advanced English but I like this class it's not so bad. 
                          I look up and see Robin whispering to someone. She's so pretty and extremely amazing I wish I was like her.
                          But looking to her slight left I make the slightest eye contact with Carter. Shit Jane don't look and if he thinks you did just deny that shit. 
                          Carter taps Robin and I see her face turn quickly. 
                          "Hey nigga why you staring." she laughs and I look around for Ms.Fray who just sits at her desk.
                          "I'm not shut up." I shake my head and dig my face back into the new book I've acquired.
                          Through class I find myself wondering over to Carter's side of the class room. Robin catches up behind me and she has the stupidest grin you could possibly see. 
                          "You know Carter has a girlfriend." she jumps to my other side.
                          "I think everyone knows that, they kinda been dating since freshmen year." 
                          "And fucking since sophomore." she adds.
                          "That's disgusting don't say that." I cringe my nose at her.
                          "Well I'm just reminding you to stay away from the taken ones." she taps me and I sway away from her touch.