benji's pov
i miss jey so much. i havent seen him in person in weeks, actually maybe over a month even. i know it
doesn't sound like a long time at all but damn im so clingy, so whipped for this boy. i'd do anything to be with him right now. all i have for now are these stupid polaroids. they're taped everywhere around my room, my walls are full of them as well as my ceiling above my bed. wtf i sound like a psycho killer or smthn.. whatever. okay well yeah, the polaroids aren't stupid, i just miss j. the memories they hold and the effect it has on me to just stare at them. fuck, i miss him. as i roll over onto my back, i look up at the polaroids on my ceiling, those were the ones with jey in them. is it weird..? no, no it's not weird, he means the most to me, it makes sense that they're there. i think. either way no one else sees them, wouldn't matter if it was weird or not. they're mostly from when we first met in person, ouch. anyways.. a month doesn't sound like a long time but it feels so long. jey and i have been apart for longer but i just miss him a shit ton. i don't know why i miss him so much now, we've been apart for longer, it just sucks i guess. tears are forming in my fucking eyes just by looking at stupids pics i- okay benji.(pic for ref 😎😎✋)