Austin POV
"Where are they going?" Jack asked me. "I don't know." I answered. I'm still in shock a little from what happened earlier. I mean i guess i saw it coming but when he said 'we need to see what we really want' it got me a little angry. I know what i really want and that's him. "Listen Austin i'v been meaning to talk to you about the other night." "No Jack it's cool really." "No it's not Austin. i want to apologise i had no idea that you and Alan had something of your own going on. I would of never done that if i knew. You wanna know the real reason why i did that?" curious i asked "why?" "well since you seem to understand after last night i lied down and thought about everything for awhile. Me and Alex have had little flings before. He claims it just get lonely on the bus. I was kind of pissed at him that night and i wanted to see how i would feel if i kissed another guy but it wasn't the same.i don't know when i'm with Alex sparks just fly. You know it's like he gets me more then anyone else. i tell him everything he knows all of my secrets and my past and i know his. i look at him more then as a best friend and i don't know what to do about it." i fought back tears because as he spoke he reminded me of Alan. i need to talk to him and jack needs to talk to Alex. "Listen i accept your apology i completely understand. Now come on you said you and Alex have had flings before right?" "yeah" "well lets go settle this once and for all. Honestly i think he does like you back." "Wait Austin we don't have to." "come on jack." i pulled his arm and followed Alan and Alex's foot steps.
Alan POV
I pushed him on to the bed with our body's pressed up against each others. Me straddling him with his hands pushing my hips on him. i started making round motions and felt him getting turned on down there. I smiled but then Austin popped in my head and all i could feel is regret. it's like i had this all planned out ready to go, ready to get my revenge but I'm so pathetic i can't even do that. "You stopped. What's wrong?" Alex asked. "i just, do you know what it feels like when someone you love has hurt you and you want revenge on them so freaking bad but you just can't do it?" he sighed and got out from under me. "Yeah i do. Can i tell you something but you have to promise not to tell anyone else?" I promise Alex." "OK well I'm in love with Jack. We had a few flings here and there but i figured he just did it because you know it got lonely on the bus. So i said that and i found out jack kissed Austin, the half drunk Micheal told me, and i just i want to somehow make him pay for hurting me. It's just i don't know if i can." "Alex i think we're both with the wrong people tonight." "me too." but we smile at each other like a knowing smile. we both knew that we could still be good friends after this. we just both where trying to get people jealous and take out our anger. we both heard the door open and looked up. Austin and Jack standing at the door way. Perfect timing. "Jack we need to talk." i heard Alex say. i stood up "i'll let you two have your time." i winked at Alex and he smirked at me. I took Austins hand and guided him out the room. He looked at me confused. "Can we just go home?" i asked. He squeezed my hand and replied with a simple "OK." We told the boys who where wanting to head out too. i guess tonight they didn't really feel like getting to drunk. As we got on the bus the band started dressing out and lying down, watching movies in their bunks and falling asleep. Austin jumped into his and i crawled in after him. i snuggled up to his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. "Austin i just-" "Alan i don't care what happened tonight just as long as me and you are together then i am OK." a smile crept up on my face. "Austin i love you." "i love you too Alan." he tightened his grip around me and we fell fast asleep.
