hit list | kiheon

03 - prologue

[ kihyun's pov. ]

me and jooheon have been dormmates for a couple months now, i could've never thought that we'd actually stop going at eachother's throats. he's actually pretty nice, and his friend group is way better than mine. let's take minhyuk, for an example from jooheon's friend group and suho from mine; minhyuk's literally the sweetest guy to exist on this earth. some bitch kept flirting with changkyun (his pretend boyfriend but best friend at the time) right infront of him and instead of doing what suho, or, i would do, which was get really mad and probably launch at the girl or slap her at least, all minhyuk did was walk to her and in the softest voice say, "sorry, kyunnie's taken. by me." with a sweet smile while he took hold of changkyun's hand.

the girl didn't even seem to get mad! i know for a fact that she's a jealous type and gets mad at pretty much anything, well duh, she was my ex. actually, maybe she didn't start a scene because she saw me standing aside with jooheon and everybody should know both of us can fight (even a girl when she's that annoying), and i wouldn't be suprised if changkyun knew a few tricks with his wings. minhyuk's probably the only one who can't defend himself that well  but then again he has claws like jooheon to scratch someone till they bleed out.

speaking honestly, i like it more with jooheon and his group. these clowns aren't toxic and don't command me around, suho is a bit older than me and always takes advantage of that. minhyuk's oldest in jooheon's group, even counting myself, but he doesn't command everybody around. it feels much safer around jooheon, changkyun and minhyuk than it does with suho, chanyeol, baekhyun and some others i don't talk to.

all my 'friends' do is force me to find out things about others, like with jooheon's nyctophobia, or in easier words; fear of the dark, then tell it to them so they can spread it around the whole school. i never got the point of doing that even if i've been ratting out people's secrets to yeol and suho for years. not a good feeling, being the person to blame for ruining someone's reputation or just making them feel awful because you're the only one they told.

as an example; a terrible one but me and suho were the ones who caused it. there was a guy at this school a few years ago, a grade higher than me i believe, maybe same grade as me, i'm not sure, i was only in the second year when this incident took place and i still didn't have any friends so i got caught in suho's web, he might as well be a spider and me, a fly, at this point. back to the story, the guy was at the school for a year already and he didn't have the best reputation, nothing horrible, just a nerd with a bad past. which i soon found out was both his parents were alchoholic homophobes and kicked him out before he even came out of the closet as bi.

that wasn't the only thing though, everybody thought he was transgender. i, obviously knew the truth, he wasn't. all he was was a crossdresser, he acted in comedy plays and filmed dumb skits with his two friends, where he was usually a princess or something or the sort for youtube videos. they didn't have a big fanbase but their 4 thousand-ish subscibers found their content enjoyable. and so, one day chanyeol found that channel. immediately assumed that the guy was trans,  told suho, who then basically forced me to go find out more about the guy. he was really sweet, a good person in general and opened up to me quite quick. i really wish he didn't...

just like that i found out things about his childhood in more depth and about his crossdressing hobby, i told suho, i didn't think he'd do anything bad but that obviously wasn't true. the guy was actually really embarrassed of his hobby and i 'promised' with my fingers crossed behind my back that i wouldn't tell anybody. that turned into everybody teasing him, kicking him around, duh, the school was full anti-lgbtq idiots, i hated that, but couldn't do anything about it. the guy completely closed off, he already figured out i told someone about his secret or i just told it around. let's just say that ended with a rope, a note and a smile.

[ author pov. ]

"hey!"

"kihYUUNNNN"

kihyun got snapped out of his 'daydream' to jooheon holding his shoulders and shaking him back and forth. kihyun looked completely out of it before he got snapped out, he already had dead-looking grey eyes (except when they turn red) but they were half closed and his face had absolutely no emotion on it when he zoned out, so jooheon got concerned on what he's thinking about.

"kihyun are you okay?? the bell rang and you didn't react to it or me calling you." jooheon said, still holding kihyun by his shoulders.

kihyun pushed jooheon's hands off his shoulders, shrugged them while saying "sorry" and then added; "was thinking about something."

"mind telling me about what? if you don't mind." jooheon said, getting curious.

"...i do mind."

"ah alright, anyways let's go to class."

"you can go."

"no. you're going too! plus, ms. kim wanted to see you."

"ughh, fine."

the day seemed to go fine. just as any other thursday: two students just like kihyun and jooheon, but this time it was suho and some other kid, nerds being kicked out of the library because the school was closing, the daily complaint about the ban of leaving school premises to go to the kfc (or any other place like that) next door to the school for lunch that was put in place last week - but kihyun had a really bad feeling in his stomach that something, he didn't know what,

but something was going to happen.

when? he also didn't know.

but soon.

and with someone he cares about.