LOST | VKOOK

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

this chapter is for all the multis out there <33 haha

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2am – Jungkook and Taehyung laid in bed together, eyes fixed to the ceiling because none of them dared to look at the other. It just hurt. During the whole flight here, they had remained silent and only stole glances at each other when the other wasn't looking. Taehyung had cried a few times but Jungkook was trying to ignore it.
Those tears weren't real, he was just sad because he had nothing to fuck anymore. It wasn't because he actually felt the same, right?
Jungkook hadn't cried, he just felt his heart aching in pain all the time.

They had arrived at the huge hotel and went to their suite, luckily unseen by anyone.
But not even in here they talked. When they realized there was only one bedroom with a double bed, both sighed but didn't argue over it. Showered, changed in bed clothes and now here they were-, laying here for almost two hours. None of them was able to sleep, heads full of thoughts they wanted to speak out but didn't know how.

None of them had expected that breaking up would hurt this bad, even though all they had was a sex contract. Nothing more than that, right?

"Jungkook?"

Taehyung's voice was the first to break the silence between them that had lasted for too many hours.

"Yes?"

"I can't sleep", he mumbled, voice numb. Darkness surrounded them because they held the curtains closed and the moon couldn't shine in. But Taehyung knew Jungkook was close enough, he could hear his breathing that was still going way too rapidly, so he couldn't be asleep either.

"Me neither"

Jungkook smiled sadly, facing the wall now when he turned his back to Taehyung. He didn't want to look at him. Because the tears were already filling up his eyes and he had no intention of crying tonight. Not with Taehyung right beside him, so close yet so far.

"We could still work this out", Taehyung whispered through the dark, turning towards to Jungkook's back and just kept looking at it.

"How?"

The older thought to himself for a while, "I don't even know why you don't want this anymore, Koo. Fixing it would work if I'd at least know your problem."

Jungkook didn't say a word, he just started sobbing and pulled his knees to his chest, hugging them softly. He looked tiny now, Taehyung's heart hurting when he saw Kook's shoulders shaking. "Koo, please just talk to me-"

"I just don't want you anymore", Jungkook lied, "Coming to New York was a mistake, I want to go back to my parents. All of this is wrong, you're the biggest mistake I ever made", he tried to put all his pain into anger, firing it against Taehyung. Jungkook wanted the older to take the pain from him, he should handle all this. Jungkook didn't want it. It was too much.
Taehyung gulped, not saying anything. Being called a mistake was something he had heard before and coming from Jungkook only made it even more hurtful.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"Everything about you is wrong!", Jungkook suddenly got up from the bed and turned towards Taehyung, turning on the lamp on his nightstand. "No one asked you to mess me up but here we are, I'm crying over a guy who just wants me for sex when all I want is to be the one he wants to marry", Jungkook cried out. "And I hate you for that."

"Jungkook I-"

"No shut the fuck up, Taehyung!", Jungkook was about to lose it. "I don't want to hear anything. I regret making this contract with you, I wish I never slept with you! You made me fall in love when all you care about is some dead bitch and your job. You and me we can never be together because you're still caught up over some bitch who cheated on you. You can't come out either because you just won't, so we can never be together in public because your job is so important. Well, I get it. Maybe if I were in your position I'd only want a fucktoy too, but I'm too good for that!"