Love Of a Fan

~The Start~

 I was a lost soul...

It was a gloomy day when I finally had enough of the life I had, the life that was treating me as if I'm trash. Sitting there all alone in the sofa, I held the blade against my chest as tears built up in my burning eyes.

No sleep

Nothing to eat

Problem after problem

I had enough... I brought the blade closer to my vein that's pumping red-hot blood throughout my whole body...

What's keeping me alive?

I've always asked myself that question, but never found an answer... and now at the end of everything... I don't have an answer so... I simply forced myself to believe I don't have a purpose...

The music that was playing on the TV helped muffle the chocked cries I let out. An inch away from the vein, my hand stopped.

My head turned to the TV, my eyes half lidded, lifeless.

Goosebumps

That's what I felt when I looked at the TV, a song by a boy group called BTS...

Blood sweat and tears

The blade long forgotten I stare awestruck at how they dance and sing as well as rap, they were all

Beautiful

The song's melody was something I was craving ever since I began to listen to music, it felt magical and I felt as though I was taken to another world. A magical world to where I can escape when the real word gets a little too much to bear.

I wanted to live

I wanted to sing

I wanted to do what they were doing

I wanted to save someone like how they saved me...

Suddenly dying seemed like a bad idea to me, I threw away the blade with the biggest smile on my face that year, with a bursting warm feeling inside my chest I smiled even more, I wanted to get to know them better.

BTS

Three letters changes my life for the better so drastically... even at this very moment I wonder how can I ever thank you all...

Doing all I can it still feels like too little... so I wanna meet you and thank you so for that... I live...

Because of you, I learned how to love myself truly... I used to want to die because of what people thought of me and looked at me, the names they called me...

But now... I don't care... I love myself and in doing so I found a lot of real friends that are always there for me, they take care of me, finally I'm not alone anymore!

2017 was the year that changed my life...

Today is august 21st 2019

I've learned so much from you all through this short time span

'' what is your name? Speak yourself. '' RM

Thank you everyone for living to do something like this...

And from here let me begin my new story

The love between millions of fans and one boy group that changed the world, who will go down in history.

This is the story of one fan among those millions...

Will you read it?

'' I will get rid of the lies in my head

And I'm taking the very first step

And I'll walk through the door

And take a deep breath

'cause I know I'll see you there

I'm not going anywhere I swear '' from ARMY

Ill speak

Ill smile

Ill dream

I'll fly

'' I live so I love ''

Prologue