Hurricane

prologue

"And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing him."

-Daughter

♦

Where I live, it rains a lot. There isn't a day when the grass isn't wet, and the pavement isn't darker. Always puddles on the sidewalk, your hair is always a little frizzy, and raindrops are always falling down your window sill.

My town is slow and sluggish. Like everyone is tired. All the other kids I go to school with can't wait to get out. They all have dreams to move to the big cities, where fun is bound to be waiting. I on the other hand, don't mind the quiet. The soft pitter patter of the droplets on our roof is now like music. That's all there is too, soft drizzle, never a storm.

That is until one day. My storm wasn't a weather pattern, but a person. He was the storm that shook you from your senses, and made your adrenalin pump like your life is ending. He was just a person to you, but he was my hurricane.

♦

Never in my life have I ever expected to be the one who could talk about another for hours, or describe some one's eyes in detail without even looking about them. I never thought I would be that girl laying awake at night thinking about a boy.

I didn't think someone could work their way into my life either. I didn't think another person could ever know me better then I knew myself. But I guess I should have seen it coming. It's what they always told me love would be like. But what they never bother to tell you is how love can break you.

What people never seem to realize is that your lover knows everything about you. They know your strengths, your weaknesses, all your worst fears, what you love, hate, anything. They could use this against you. They could use you.

My lover came like a hurricane. He was a soft storm in the beginning, taking his time to know me, and I him. Our relationship began to get stronger, as did my love for him.

He made me feel fearless. I was standing next to this extraordinary person, when I, myself is just ordinary. He introduced me to the parts of myself I didn't know existed, showing me my true capabilities, while I showed him how to control his

In the eye of the hurricane, in the center, there is an area where it is totally calm. It's as if there isn't even a storm going on around you. But it only lasts for a second, before your swept back up in the storm, chewed up, and spit out.

As I stood in the eye of my very own storm, I had no idea of the destruction around the corner. I didn't know of the hopelessness and sadness this boy would leave me. I was taken from the highest point of my life, back to the very bottom.

That's what they never told me. They never told me that one person could build you up and then rip it right out from underneath you.

That's why I'm telling you.