My Feelings Are Confusing

Emerald

Hey i am Emerald.I am 17 years old. For awhile i found myself in a good way. I found out that i am bi. If you don't know what bi means it means that i like guys and girls. I have dated a girl but it didn't really work out. I have a crush on this girl but the thing is i don't know if it will work. I start my senior year this year. The girl i like is my best friend and her name is Winter. She is my age and she is also a senior. We hung out all summer and we really had a fun time but i also got feelings for her and you know how hard it's too get rid of the feeling. I dropped her off around 9pm because we had school the next day.
                                              "The next morning"
            I woke up to my alarm clock going off. I hate getting up on monday's. I finally get up and get dressed I go to the bathroom to brush my hair and teeth and to wash my face. I put on my bracelets, rings and my necklace. I headed to my car and started driving to school.  I usually get there before my friends. I sit down with my friends and I start reading my book. As soon my friends gets there we all talk about what happened over the summer. The bells ring and they head to their classes. I have half classes with my friend Rose. Today is the day when I tell Rose that I like my best friend. Rose and Winter and I are all really good friends. Rose and I go to first period. We have 10 minutes before we have to start class.

       " Hey Rose I have something to tell you but I am scared to." Rose gave me a worried look. " I know you know that i am bi and i kinda like a girl. I have liked this girl since tenth grade and I wanna talk to her about it but I am nervous" Rose looked happy.

                "Who is she and do I know her?" Rose asked me. 

           "Yes you do know her and is um.... she is our best friend." Rose just started at me. I don't know if it was good or bad.

           " Wow really. i think you should talk to her you would look cute together."

            "I want to Rose but i don't know how she feels about me. I don't wanna ruin the friendship we have. You know the club we go to GSA?" Rose nodds. " When we went our freshmen year everyone asked if we were dating because of how we acted with each other. Every Time someone asked me I blush and I feel like my face turns bright red and I look away. I have this fear that she doesn't like me back." 

              "I know you are scared Emerald but you never know what will happen if you don't do it. I know you are scared but trying new things are good." While she was talking I was thinking that she is right about it." If she doesn't like you back I will be here for you but your feeling won't go away. I am glad you found love and when people ask you if you two are dating i see you blush because you always turns around. You shouldn't be ashamed of loving someone even though it's a girl. So many people has shipped you to because they know you guys will always have each others back." I knew she was right.

          "Thanks but.." As I said that the bell rang."I will talk to you 2nd period. ". I couldn't stop thinking about what Rose told me. I wasn't even paying attention. I could her someone calling my name but I didn't look. The next thing i knew someone was shaking me. I jumped up and looked at Rose.

        "Are you ok Emerald, you zooned out."

     "Oh yeah I am ok. I told Rose but I know she knew I wasn't. The ball rang and we were walking to 2nd period. "As I was saying in class is thanks for the advice but why would I ask her? I don't wanna go up to Winter and say hey so I like you and then just stare at her or walk away. I feel like I am gonna blush. I am gonna give it a week or two to tell her." Rose had that look like she was gonna kill me if I didn't do it this week. 

          "Emerald, I know that you are scared but waiting it out isn't good because people are still gonna ask you the question and you still have to face Winter. I think you should do it friday but not in a text to her face so you both would have the weekend to think about it." 

           "You are right like always. I know I shouldn't wait it out but I want to." We walk into our 2nd period. "Emerald you know waiting is not a good thing at all. You need to do it sooner than later." I knew Rose was right but I didn't wanna admit it......