My Feelings Are Confusing

How Dare You

"Save it Blaze. I hope you are happy with her because i am done with you. Tomorrow would be our two month anniversary." I turned around to my friends and there boyfriends and i was crying. I run away but i heard them say somethings.

     " How dare you do this to her. You are lucky you aren't on the floor right now. Don't ever talk to her again." I heard Rose and Winter say.

    " Dude really i thought you were better than that. You kept telling us how much you loved her and then you do this. I can't believe you." I heard ALex and Chris say. 

I ran and ran into the woods. I had tears down my face. What was i thinking that he actually liked me. I am such an idiot. I heard Rose, Winter, Chris and Alex call my name. I turned around and yelled.

          "Please leave me alone"

 I didn't stop running but they did. It's been two weeks. I haven't been to school and i haven't gone home. I have been living in these woods for two weeks. My friends and family has called me but i turned my phone off. I had cuts on my arms. I found a piece of glass and started cutting myself.

        *Blaze's point of view two weeks ago*

I was waiting for Em outside of her classroom when Ava showed up. I knew she wanted to start trouble. 

"What do you want Ava" I asked her.

"i want you Blaze. I know you don't love Emma at all." She said while flirting

" First of her name is Emerald and i do still love her. I love her with all of my heart." I was starting to get really pissed at her. " Can you please go. Emerald is coming and i know you want trouble." I saw Emerald coming but then i couldn't see her. Ava started kissing me and i didn't pull back until i heard Em yelling at me. I pushed her away from me. I could really see that it hurt Emerald. When she slapped Ava and told me that i was her first boyfriend i was really suprised. I didn't see that coming. When she turned around i was gonna stop her but then her friends even mine friends were yelling at me and then they ran after here. After 10 minutes they came back. 

"What the hell dude" My friends Alex and Chris asked. 

" It wasn't my fault. Ava came over here and she said shit and then she kissed me." 

" You didn't even push her away. I watched the whole thing." Winter told me.

 "Guys i know i messed up i will talk to her after a day or two." They all looked pissed at me which i understand. I tried calling her and i thought she was still mad at me but two weeks later. I sat with my friends and their girlfriends. "Hey guys have you seen or heard from Em" They all looked at me. 

   "To be honest no. I have tried calling her but she didn't answer me." Rose told me and Winter agreed with her. " We should go to her house after school." They all agreed. After a couple of hours school ended. We went to her house. I knocked on her door.

  "Hello i am Blaze. Is Emerald home?" 

     "Guys she has been missing for two weeks i called the police and they haven't found her yet." We all looked shocked and her friend Cole was in tears. You could tell he has been crying for days and he hasn't slept." This is all my fault. 

"The fuck is  wrong with me" I yelled as a walked back to the car.I heard him ask.

"Isn't that her boyfriend" I heard Cole ask.

"Yeah well he was. That friday they had a fight and she ran out of the school into the woods but we all thought she was home" I heard Winter say. 

I am so pissed off. I don't know if i am pissed at Ava or i am pissed at myself. She is lost and no one knows where she is because of me. I should of pushed her away and i fucking didn't this. It's all my fucking fault. Today is saturday. It's been two weeks and a day i couldn't take it. I went into the woods to look for her. I headed to the school woods because that's when my friends saw her. i started walking into the woods and about 60 miles in i saw something. I didn't know what it was until i got closer. "Em is that you?"...............