Just Like Fire

The retourn

It was cold, a dark day like most of them are in Seattle. Andy's mood combined with it, of course she was feeling better, she was going back to work.

Robert was right next to her, in the car, at this point it didn't make sense for them to go in separate cars, right? After all, he stayed with her for two weeks, where would they think he was? She looked at him, hoping he would give her some kind of encouragement.

"Hey, if you want to, you we can stay home for a few more days. But if you really want to work, and be with your people, you can do it. I know you will amaze me today; you always do. And if you don't, just come to my office, and I'll help with whatever you need or want." Robert said, holding her hand, and kissing it, like he always does.

"I need to be at work!" she said, grabbing her thing from the backseat.

They left the car and parted ways almost immediately, he went to his office, while she headed towards the lockers, to get changed. It felt so weird, the whole station was completely silent, no one to be seen, and she knew why. They knew she was back, and they were worried about her, and about her reaction. And the fact is that she didn't see one single person until she walked in the beanery.

Everyone stop when she walked in, but she still loved what she saw. The tabled was full of food, there was bread, cereal, jelly, fruit, eggs, bacon... all kinds of breakfast. And her people was there, every single member of the family she had left was sitting at that tabled, except for her husband. She wanted him there.

While she could physically see them thinking about what to say, it was Vic the first one to move towards her, hugging her.

"Herrera, nice to have you back... herrr, if you need anything..." – see said while they were going back to the table.

"I'm fine, really. You don't need to protect me, or talk to me like I'm made of glass. I don't like that and it makes me depressed."

"Copy That" "Right, sorry" "You're right" were some of the answers she got back.

"We made you breakfast though, not cause you are made of glass, but because you lost weight, you know that's bad for the work we do here, don't you?" – Maya said next to her.

"Yeah captain, in that case, lets eat! Did you invite Sullivan?" – Andy looked around, she really wanted him there with her. And then it downed on her, did her friends still clueless about her marriage, or her relationship at all? She read all of their expressions, none of them seemed to be aware of anything, except Maya. Maya smiled at her, not normally, that was her best friends smile that said 'we need to talk about that'.

"He said he needed to end a couple reports, you know... he also stayed at home during the past weeks, he inhaled a lot of smoke in that fire..." Nothing in Travis voice sounded like suspicion, it looked more like he was just Informing her.

Andy played as cool as she could.

"Really? Is he alright?"

"I am lieutenant, thank you for asking" He said walking in the beanery, taking his seat at the top of the tabled, next to Andy. She then realized that he made sure no one knew about them. And somehow, she was glad. Their wedding was a good thing, she wanted it to be celebrated without guilt, she wanted to be the one telling them, wanted to hug them, to go for a couple of beers with them. This just wasn't the time.

The day went by smoothly, just a few calls, nothing too serious. At the end of the afternoon, she was in the garage, polishing the firetruck, it calmed her. She remembered doing it with her dad and uncles when she was a kid, or even with Ryan. It was something that made her fell protected. She got so emerged in her own thoughts, that it scared her when she her someone behind her.

"How are you?" – Jack had a bucket and was now helping her.

"Jack, we talked about it, don't do that. I said I'm fine"

"Hey, I get to be worried about you, ok? You haven't even been sleeping at home, it's like you are actively trying to push me away!"

"Not everything is about you. This isn't about you"

"No, this is about you. Andy, I'm worried about you. You went trough a traumatic event and you haven't been home. Or at Mayas, I asked her."

He stopped for a few seconds, as if he was trying not to say something he would regret.

"I just want to know that you are fine, that whoever is the person that is helping you right now... that he is making a good job, that he is helping you, putting you first."

She stayed silent for a few minutes, and so did he. They both kept doing their job, until she stopped, he was her friend, and her ex. She shouldn't tell him in front of everyone. He earned the right to know first.

"It'sSullivan. I'm sleeping at Sullivan's... because we got married"