This effects every single part of my life. It effects me when I get into my car and put my seat belt on and can feel it on my stomach.
It effects me when I go shopping and I avoid buying the clothes u really like because "they only look good on skinny people" and "I'll buy it when I'm skinnier"
I really shouldn't eat that but who cares it's not like anybody actually cares and and I'll just fix it later
When I sit down I have to either have a very loose shirt on or something in my lap because I can't let anyone see and I don't like to feel it.
I change my clothes before I go out 2-5 times until I feel comfortable enough. I take photos of it to punish myself when I look at it to feel bad because I hope it'll make me hate myself so much I'll just stop eating. But I'm so addicted to food it's all I ever think about contantly. I just want to eat everything all the time. And I have no stop setting.
I don't get out of bed because as soon as I get out of bed I start eating and I honestly should just run away from home so that I have no money and no way to eat and I'll finally stop being so fat.
"It's a shame. I used to fit into that when I was your age" aka ur way fatter than I was at that age. "I was such a skinny twig. At your age"
I don't like meeting new people bc what they will think about my body.
