The girl with bulimia (Nash grier fanfic) *May Trigger*

Chapter 17

Nash pov
"I'm sorry about what I've done to you." I say. Truly I'm
Not. "I can't just forgive you." Malina says.
"I know I want to make it up to you." I say. "how because you can't make up for the permanent pain and hurt you have caused me." She says tears now falling down her cheek. I reaches and wipe them away. Ughhh she is such a fat ass baby. She looks at me. "why are you being nice to me I know you hate me." She says.
Yes yes I do I thought "I hate myself too." She mumbles. she should hate herself. "maybe I like you, maybe that's why I'm being nice to you." I says totally lying. She laugh. "like that's true no one does." I say. When she said that part of me was laughing and part of me felt horrible. "Matt Shawn and Kilani does." I says. "they don't count." I see more tears fall down her face. "you know you and the others cause me to do things to myself I'm not telling you about." She says. Just what I wanted. "I know what you do remember I caught you I promise not to tell." I says. It's not working because she still a fat ass. "How can I trust, because I can't because you just me to much Nash." She says now sobbing. "please just trust me." I says and My as start to gloss because I realized how much I hurt her. what am i doing stop crying you hate her. "I can't even smile or laugh because you hurt me to much Hamilton." She say. I want to cringe because she said my real name. I hate her but then I still
Have feelings for her but I want to
Hurt her so much for hurting me. I look down. "I'm sorry." I say. "Sorry isn't enough Hamilton." She says getting up. Then I grab her arm. "l-let me go Nash please." She says scared. She should be haha. then I smash my lips onto hess but this time was different from the first time we sat on the balcony. She kissed back. I felt happy but then I had that evil voice in my head saying the plan
Is working. soon Se pull away frighten. it brings me so much pleasure seeing her scared. "Stop doing that." she says and walk back in tears pour down her face I get up and walk in. I get in bed. the an is falling into
It's pieces so
Well soon she will have her whole world shattered. but what if my feelings grow and I actually love her. what ever she hurt she hurt me that's all that matters she broke my heart it's time to break hers.
Soon it was morning and I saw Kilani was sleep and fat ass was in the bathroom.
Taylor wine up as soon as I did. "hey let's go to Matt room." he says. "ok." I say.
We go into Matt room and all the guys and us start smack caming each other. soon Malina and Kilani comes in. Malina looks pretty than usual. what the hell did I just say I meant she looks uglier than usual. They sit on the couch and talk to
Mahogany then Shawn walks over to them.
"hey lani I was wondering maybe you andi can go out to eat later." Shawn says. "sure." she says. Shawn walks away and I see Malina raising an eyebrow at Kilani. "she's got a date." mahogany yells. all the boys cheer and pat Shawn on the back and Kilani just blush. Malina hugs Kilani and I just mentally roll my eyes but put on
A fake smile. I see Malina get up and walk to the balcony and sit. I follow her out but she doesn't notice . "malina." i say. I hate having to talk to her but a small part of me loves it. "what do you want."she says. "Nothing I was just wondering if you wanted to go out tonight as friends." I says. Ugh I have to possibly hang with fatso the clown "why should I." She says. "So I can at least try to make up for the things that aren't permanent." I say. "I'll think about I say getting up and walking back into the room." She says. I walk back in and continue to joke around with the boys. my heart tells me she's so fat and ugly and I hate her. But my head is telling me she beautiful and to stop hurting her but my heart is taking over. Its diffucult. "Malina let's go eat." Kilani and mahogany says. Like she needs to eat. She sighs and get up and they leave out. I hang with the boys for a while we order room service we ate played around filmed soon Matt and I went my room. she sigh and walk to my room. soon we hear the door open .I see Malina run and jump on Matt. " hey Li Li." he says. "Hi." She says nuzzling her head into him. "what's the matter." he asks? "Nothing She says. "you only do this when so etching wrong Lina Bina." he says. "nothing's wrong Matt can't I just hug my twin." She says getting up a little mad that he's questioning her. Fat ass can't tell her brother she can't stop eating. "ok Jezz sorry." he says. She walks to the bathroom and slam the door. Matt and I continue to talk . We look up and She walked out after a few minute probably went to throw up. "Nash let's go." She say. "go where?" I say. "you said you want to hang come on I do t have all night." She says. "ok." I say getting up. She hugs Matt and kiss his cheek. he walks out of our room. Malina and I head to the elevator and get in when it comes. "where are we going." She asks quietly. "the beach." I say. "ok." She says. soon we arrive to the lobby and leave out the back way since the fans are in the front. we walk to the beach and when we got there I took off my shoes. Iwe sit on the sand. "Malina I'm sorry about what I've do e and said the past 4 years." I says. I'm truly not because all that stuff I say is true. "I'm not forgiving you that fast I already told you that Nash." She says. "I know and I won't stop until you do." I say. I hate have to
Work for her she so ugly but beautiful at the same time. ugh my stupid ass feelings. "you know you make me scared to go to school." she says. "I know." he says looking down. I sigh. "I bet I caused you depression and anxiety." I say. She deserves it. She doesn't say anything knowing it's true. "can we stop talking about my problems." Shecsay looking away so I won't see her crying. I reach for her chin and turns her face towards me and wipes her bears away out of instinct. "Stop crying." I say. "how can I you cause me to hurt my self starve myself make myself throw up and then you start being nice to me it just doesn't work like that." She say. Wow I caused all of that. "I know and I hate myself for treating you like that and I-I didn't know I caused you to do that go yourself." I said and tears fall from my eyes She reaches and wipes them away out of instinct. I smiles at her. then I picks her up and runs towards the water. "Hamilton stop this is my favorite outfit stop put me down." She says. "not until you stop calling me Hamilton and give me a chance." I say. "fine fine I'll give you one chance Nash." She says. "good." I say putting her down. She pick up sand and throw it at me and starts running. "hey no fair." I say running after her. She runs away from me laughing. it actually warms my heart that she laughing. what the hell it's warming to see her hurt I mean.
He catches me and spins me around. I missed having her as my friend. "we should head back." She says smiling. "Yeah we should." I say smiling. I grab her hand and hold it and we walk back to the hotel together we get to our room and see a note from Taylor and Kilani.
Kilani saying she's stating in Shawn's room and Taylor was staying in the jacks. I wait for Malina to get in the shower and I sit around until she comes out. When she does I get in. I can't let me feelings take over me I just can't I have to complete my plan. Soon I finish in the shower I get out change and walk out. when I do I see Malina crying. I walk over to the bed and hug her from behind. She turns and hugs me and cry. I know I know why am I hugging her I don't know why either. "it's ok Malina none of that is true." I say. "y-yes it is." She says crying. "it's all true and I should just kill myself." She says. "no you shouldn't Malina they are just jealous." I say. soon
He falls asleep in my arms. I fall asleep holding her. Nash you need to pull your self together and stop letting the feelings take over.

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