The girl with bulimia (Nash grier fanfic) *May Trigger*

Chapter 18

Malina pov
"Nash get out if my bed." I hear Kilani yell. I sit up and see Kilani pushing Nash out of the bed. I rub my eyes and remember what happened last night. I smile to myself. "Malina what are you smiling about?" Kilani asks. "I'll tell you when we are alone ." I say. "ok, we go home tomorrow." she says. "alright." I say getting up. I look over and see Nash smiling at me I turn my head away and blush. "omg you to did not make up." Kilani says in disbelief. "not fully." I say. "be careful Lina I feel he's up to something." she says. "ok sissy." I say. "me and Shawn are boyfriend and girlfriend." she says. "seriously." I say getting excited. "seriously." she says smiling. I hug her and walk over to nash and Taylor. "sorry for interrupting your convo but Nash do you want to hang out with Kilani Shawn Matt Jacob Aaron and I at sky zone." I say. "sure." he says. "Ok." I says. I go and grab a water bottle from the fridge and head down to the gym. I work out on the equipment for a while. then I see one of the girls from the event who humiliated me. I start to get scared and go to the treadmill and try not to get noticed by her. but she does. she smirks at me. I continue to run. She gets on the one next to me. "hey fatass." she says. I try to ignore her but the comment hurts me. "you know they eat cows like you." she says. I continue to run trying not to cry then she pushes a button the machine that makes me fall and hit my face and hurt my arm. I get up and tears fall from my eyes and she's laughing I grab my phone water and hey card and run out to the room. "hey Malina what time..." I here Kilani say. but I run into the bathroom slamming and locking the door. I sit on the floor and cry. I turn on the camera on my phone and look at the bruise forming on cheek. "Lina what's wrong let me in." Kilani says. I ignore her and go over to the toilet. I open the toilet and throw up every thing that I can. once I finish I flush the toilet and sit on the floor. "Malina let's us in." I hear Nash say. "leave me alone." I cry. "please let us in."Shawn says. I open the door with a tear stained face and they all hug me and I hug back and cry. "what happened." Shawn asks. "the girl from the venue was at the gym she started insulting me them she push a button on my machine and caused me to fall hit my arm and face and laughed." I say looking down. I can never be happy. "she is an ass." Kilani says. "just let me get changed." I say walking to my bag grabbing shorts a tank and my heart box. I walk in and open the box with my razor and my jewelry I add another cut to my arm clean it and then change. I put a bracelet on and my necklace and walk out.
I see Nash Kilani ands shawn talking shocking. I put my stuff in my bag and grab my satchel. "ready?" I say. "mhm." they say. we go to Matt kabob and Arron's room to get them then we got in the elevator. Nash puts his arm around my waist. I actually feel comfortable this time. I smile up at him but giving him my fake smile. he smiles back. Shawn looks at us confused. "they are trying to be friends again but she hasn't fully forgiven him." Kilani whispers to shawn. we get to the lobby and walk to the car that's waiting for us in the back. we get in and I sit in between Kilani and shawn. we talk and chat until we arrive at sky zone. when we get there we sign the wavers and buy sick we put them on and then we go to jump. the boys tried to attempt flips but Kilani and I beat there ass considering we did gymnastics together. "Kilani are you and Shawn going on your first real date tonight as a couple." I ask. "yeah we are." she says. "awwww." I say. I hear Shawn chuckle and I start to laugh. then I feel two people pick me up. I look down and see it's Nash and matt. "put me down you two I'm already hurt." I say. then they throw me into the pit. "Malina when you get hurt?" Matt asked worried. "long story." I say quietly. "ok." he says. once we finish at sky zone we head back to the hotel. "Lina help me pick out a dress." Kilani says. "ok."i say. Nash and Taylor went to the pool with the others except for Shawn. Kilani and I finally pick out a waterfall dress and flats. I do her makeup and hair and soon Shawn's knocking on the door. "you look beautiful." he says. "thank you she says. then they leave guess it's me myself and the media. I grab my laptop from my bookbag and log onto twitter Instagram and tumblr.
Every 7 comments hate and one nice one.
Cow
Ugly
Kill yourself
Let me shoot you
Stab yourself
Shot yourself then fall off a cliff
Stupid ass
I love you Malina.
It's just constant.
I try to ignore it but I can't I start to cry and go to the balcony not caring to close the door. I pull at my hair and scream and fall to the ground crying. I get up crying and sit on the ledge and look down.
Just jump
Runs through my head just jump. When I was about to let go someone grabbed me.
"No let me go let me go." I cry and try to get away. "Malina no stop." Nash says holding me. "let me Die, let me Die." I cry.
"No I'm Not I'll save you every time." He says. "I just want to die." I say crying. "as someone trying be your friend again im not letting you." he says crying. I look up at him from my tear filled eyes and see him
Crying which Makes me cry more because I'm Causing the guy I love shockingly to cry. He picks me up and carries me into the room And sits me down on the bed. He goes into the bathroom and comes back out with a towel and wipes away the makeup that ran down my face. he goes into my bag and Grabs my pjs and hands them to me. He goes into the bathroom and I begin to change. Thinking he will take a while I face toward the wall and change. I take off my shirt then I hear a gasp. I try to cover myself. "I did that to you." He says tears in his eyes. I look down and don't say anything. "I'm so sorry." he says hugging me. I hug back and cry in his arms not caring anymore. soon I pull away and put my shirt on and he goes back into the bathroom I hurry up and put my sweatpants on. I tie my hair up and lay in bed. soon I feel the bed dip and I feel Nash wrap his arms around me. we aren't dating but we did this when we were younger when ever one of us was upset and we had a sleepover. soon I felt him untangle his arms from around me and I hear Taylor walk in then Kilani. soon I fall asleep with Kilani taking Nash's spot he was recently in. I hug my friend for comfort while I sleep.